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boxcastle
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Date Joined May 2007
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   Posted 10/22/2008 3:19 PM (GMT -7)   
i have been meaning to sit down and write on this for a while but i honestly haven't had time untill just now. Because (belive it or not) my life is quite full again.
 
I was under a lot of stress with school, and gradually i started getting more and more sick, feeling naucious, panic attacks (although i didn't know what they were at the time), depression, anger, hiding away from social situations. Eventually i had a full break down and couldn't actually leave my house without having full on sevear panic attacks and having to go back in. Some days i couldn't even leave my bed room, i remember christmas day and my family made me come downstairs to open presents, and i spent the whole time trying not to throw up and wanting to go back to my room. I was so anxcious, even when i was in my room (my safe place) i felt sick and had panic attacks because i was constantly so worried about my health. They told me it was anxiety related, but i refused to belive them and stayed a prisoner of my own mind for about a year before i finally got help.
 
I started seeing a psychotherapist, although i didn't find him altogether that helpful. I began a course of prozac (40mg a day), took walks every single day (just going a little further each time, and then back again), and most of all, came on this forum and got support and hope from those in the same situation. And thats what i want to achieve fromt his post, i want you to know there IS hope and it DOES get better. I remember sitting reading sucess stories and thinking "maybe it will never happen to me" - I am 20 years old and i worked full time at a dementia ward following my recovery which took a lot but i faced it. I then moved to London, just me and a friend, no job, no nothing and set up home from scratch - I DID IT. It took all i had, it was the scariest thing ever, but you know, the panic attacks, completely vanished and i started worrying about real life things again, like what to wear, and what to cook for dinner. I am now back in my home town (because i need the money not coz of panic) and am auditioning for THEATRE SCHOOL (prays please!). 
 
I get so angry seeing all these expensive treatment methods that claim to get rid of your panic attacks if you just pay them hundereds of dollars, its not faire that they ask that of you, and you don't need them. I think medicines deffinetly help some people, some peopel therapy, but i think (in my experience) the old fashioned way, just pushing yourself a tiny bit every day - just walking to the end of the drive way and back at first even. It feels like it takes forever, but you really do get there, and when you do get there, its all so worth the risks you took. Buy cheap books used of amazon or ebay about CBT, start a diary to help locate where your negative thoughts come from and when they arise, take a walk every day, maybe with a personal music system to help take your mind off of it! YOU WILL GET THERE!
 
I had the first panic attack i've had in AGES the other day, i was tired and on the way home from a big comedy gig and hadn't eaten well, and it came on, i knew what it was, and after a few seconds it just went away again because of the CBT i have learnt. I will admit, i still need help with my depression, but it makes 1000000000000000000000 times the difference now my panic has gone.
 
I hope this has inspired some people, i REALLY need you to know that you can get through this, even though it seems so impossible right now. You will look back and actually be in disbelife that you were ever a prisoner to those silly panic attacks. DON'T LET THEM BEAT YOU!!!!
 

stkitt
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   Posted 10/22/2008 8:32 PM (GMT -7)   
yeah   yeah   yeah   yeah Boxcastle yeah   yeah   yeah   yeah  
 
I am so proud of you and I have assembled a chorus line to dance just for you.  Look how far you have come and you did it yourself with support from others but you are the one that did the work.  Celebrate your huge accomplishments and know that your coming here and sharing your healing is a example of the caring person you are.
 
Keep living your life to the fullest and when you hit a bump in the road know it is normal..........you have my admiration.
 
Gentle Hugs to you
Kitt
 

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nervymeg
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   Posted 10/22/2008 10:50 PM (GMT -7)   

Wow! Boxcastle, that is just fantastic news. My hat is off to you smilewinkgrin

Thanks for sharing such an inspirational story..I love to hear about hope and succes. Keep moving forward; the best is yet to come.

Meg


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Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/24/2008 3:38 PM (GMT -7)   
I am so impressed and so bleeding PROUD of you

'THANKS for posting
IT will inspire someone else I know it will

Take care and KUDOS

.....LUVS
..........LYN
  DX With Crohns,Pyoderma Gangrenosum,Anxiety/Panic,Fibro & Other DD
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countrybttrfly
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Date Joined Oct 2008
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   Posted 10/25/2008 4:12 AM (GMT -7)   
you said the panic attack went away cause of the CBT you learned . What is CBT?

stkitt
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   Posted 10/25/2008 9:30 AM (GMT -7)   

Good Morning,

CBT therapy:

Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.

Here is a link for a free online CBT self help study guide. You can work through the program at your own pace.  It is best to work with a therapist but this will work if you stick to it.
CBT

The MoodGym Training Program

http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/

Good Luck,
Kitt


 


 

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percycat
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Date Joined Jul 2005
Total Posts : 1952
   Posted 10/25/2008 11:53 AM (GMT -7)   
Boxcastle,

That is a marvellous story! Thanks for sharing! You've given me inspiration to do that little extra pushing that will keep me moving in the positive direction.

Hugs,
percycat

Howlyncat
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   Posted 10/25/2008 4:04 PM (GMT -7)   
SEE Boxcastle
I told ya you would inspire someone ( puss puss) and I am sure more will be inspired as well

Thanks again

I also do CBT

LYN
  DX With Crohns,Pyoderma Gangrenosum,Anxiety/Panic,Fibro & Other DD
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                                    FIGHT the FIGHT with all YOU HAVE
               Look For The GOOD,Even At Your Lowest
 
     Listen To Your Heart,Look Inside Yourself,Understand You
 
 
 
                    


Mazfire
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Date Joined Oct 2008
Total Posts : 1683
   Posted 10/25/2008 4:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Boxcastle, my name is Maz and after reading your post, I am inspired to get moving a little bit at a time and you have reminded me that there is hope- I am so pleased for you, and I thankyou for sharing your positivity!
 
Maz XX :-)
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, Polycystic Ovaries, Chronic ear/nose/throat infections, Panic Disorder, Reactive Arthritis, Agoraphobia, Migraines, GERD, Anaemia, Sinusitis, Chronically perforated eardrums, Pinched Nerves, IBS, Tachycardia, Allergies, Insomnia, Trichotilomania, Glandular Fever, Bursitis, Encapsulitis, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, Mild OCD.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Nexium. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie. XX.
 
 

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