Well my wkend got alot longer.
Pulled a sickie on monday, took a sedative (like Seredyn) on the Sunday to calm me down it worked but made me extremely drowsy so much tht i was way too tired to go to work on Mon.
Neways mon nite rolls by n I see Sam she apoligies for having ago at me and says the state of the house is really getting her down and she beginning to hate living ther. I got every1 together and told them how Sam was feeling and we all agreed things need to change. Ive become OCD bout the washing up and cant have even one plate in the sink. So im definetly doing my bit.
Neways out in the pub talking to all my housemates when my ex shows up wiv her group of friends and her current BF. I hadn't seen her with another since we broke up, i knew she was seeing bt to actually see them together was weird. Especially as the group of friends sat on table next to me so tht my ex and BF wer sitting directly behind me. He had his arm round her and it was sort of touching me and same, it was just plain weird. After bout 10mins of this and her saying I hope ur too drunk wen we get back to mine. I turned round and talked to them both saying isn't this really weird for u this whole situation a brief conversation followed. Her new bf obv disturbed by my unorthodox attitude was very argumentative to everthing I said. I let it go tho and after another 10mins left the weird situation and even hey it nice meeting u to her BF in a sarcastic way. It doesn't bother she seeing some1 it doesn't bother tht im going to have to watch her with another guy i jus dontwant my nose rubbed in it. I nearly stormed off tht night but decided i wasn't letting ruin my quiet evening out.
I want too stress it wasn't her fault she sat behind the group of friends chose wher to sit when she was in the toilet. I also want to stress this was the first tme i had actully seen her with any1. This is the thing considering her BF was trying to wind me up i feel i handled the situation as best i could, Im realy pleased ok alot of ppl think im really weird bt it was my only way of handling it. I glad i didn't stress out or have an anxiety or start a fight with a wall on the way home. Old me would have done. I have to admit i have been having compulsive thoughts about the whole situation and it is now making me anxious i realy cant get it out my head and feel if im not careful a full on anxiety episode is round the corner.
Needed to vent realy, sorry for long post