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Mazfire
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   Posted 10/31/2008 8:15 PM (GMT -7)   
Ive had 9 lots of surgery since i was 13, and with a nursing background its not something im scared of. but i have to have more.
last year i had 'F.E.S.S' surgery which is for sinusitis. they put you to sleep, break your nose, shocked correct your septum, then head up there with a drill, and drill out the sinus cavities in your cheekbones, so fluids can drain better. you wake up feeling like youve just been smashed in the face with the back of a shovel. when i had the surgery last yr, my surgeon warned me that 5% of people need to have it done every 1 to 2 yrs as their sinuses go back to how they were before.
 
i had a month long recovery for this surgery, and now im in the 5% that need to have it done again, as well as having grommets (drains) put in my ears and having a "throat scraping" where they get the remnants of my tonsils that were left behind after a botched tonsillectomy in 2000.
 
im stressing because i cant afford the time off work and even though i have private health insurance, i was out of pocket nearly $1,800 last time. all surgery is painful, but facial surgery involving the breaking of bones is pretty savage. they had me on excellent IV painkillers in hospital and my nurse was lovely- its just a big step to take, because the recovery process is slow and, well, gory, to be honest.
 
i dont have the money at the moment. my surgeon wont operate over the school holidays at the end of the year, he is going away so i have to wait. life with chronic sinusitis is awful and its a bit of an anxiety trigger for me, because i cant breathe properly and that agitates me. as well as the facial pain. my head feels like a pressure cooker and my eardrums have blown.
im so over this.  the old cliche, "sick and tired of being sick and tired"? thats how it feels.
 
sorry for unloading, needed to get it off my chest. its so hard when you try so hard to do everything right, and everything goes wrong instead. however, my faith keeps me going. id be lost without it.
 
Maz XX


'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, Polycystic Ovaries, Chronic ear/nose/throat infections, Panic Disorder, Reactive Arthritis, Agoraphobia, Migraines, GERD, Anaemia, Sinusitis, Chronically perforated eardrums, Pinched Nerves, IBS, Tachycardia, Allergies, Insomnia, Trichotilomania, Glandular Fever, Bursitis, Encapsulitis, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, Mild OCD.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Nexium. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie. XX.
 
 

Post Edited (Mazfire) : 11/1/2008 4:42:16 PM (GMT-6)


nervymeg
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   Posted 11/1/2008 6:47 AM (GMT -7)   

Maz,

I'm not sure who you are with, but funds tend to kick back in during January. All the same, sounds like nasty surgery.  Try not to over think it okay?  You will be "out" and it will alleviate that breathing. I know medicare is a devil but are you on a wait list??? Tis free then...but still scary. Best of wishes my friend. Let it go for now....

Meg


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percycat
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   Posted 11/1/2008 9:41 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey, Maz, that sure does sound dreadful. I know you're willing to do it because it will ultimately make you better, but I feel your concern about all that pain again. And I hear you that the money issues are not helping matters at all. Try to take it just one step at a time. You know that it will be difficult, no matter what, so maybe try to sort out what's the least difficult route through it? Surgery first, pay later? Save up and tough out the sinisitus? Other plans? You'll find one that works, I'm sure.

Hugs,
percycat

Green Grove
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   Posted 11/1/2008 9:42 AM (GMT -7)   
Maz,
I sure hope everything goes well. I have a few friends that has went through this (or similar) and they have done real well :)

Take care now,
Sam
Dream as if you'll live forever. . . Live as if you will die today. . .
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Georgie Girl
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   Posted 11/1/2008 11:47 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Maz

I'm sorry to hear about all your difficulties and especially sad to hear your sinus problems have recurred despite the surgery.  I had sinus endoscopy done in 2004 - although I still snorted and sniffed, the surgery obviously helped as I didn't get a sinus infection for three years after the surgery (whereas before I had 2-3-4 infections per year).  Now however I think my sinuses have "grown back" like they were as problems are exacerbating.
 
I can see how having these horrible stopped up sinuses could add to your anxiety.  Hope something good happens for your soon.
 
GG
Georgie Girl


TeacherBetsy
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   Posted 11/1/2008 12:08 PM (GMT -7)   
Maz, I'm sorry to hear that you have to go through this again... no advice to give except to take it a step at a time... definitely in agreement with you re: medical costs and the pain of surgery. I'm sorry that you're in the 5% but hope this will work out for you in time so you'll be able to have the operation and some relief from the sinusitis.

Take care and keep the faith,

Betsy

stkitt
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   Posted 11/1/2008 2:34 PM (GMT -7)   

Oh Maz,

I am so sorry and to have to go through getting your nose broken.........I know you will have huge black eyes........ow.
You are very brave and know if it was me I would be scared, nurse or no nurse.  Give yourself a break to feel upset but take it one day at a time.  I am glad you have your God.

My prayers for you

Gentle Hugs

Kitt


 

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Mazfire
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   Posted 11/1/2008 3:32 PM (GMT -7)   

Kitt, you were spot on with the black eyes- i looked like a panda, and my cheeks were very swollen as the bony cavities behind them had been drilled out- so a cross between a panda and a squirrel! rolleyes   i bled from my nose and mouth for 3 weeks straight.

Meg, medicare is a devil ! I am with MBF. i am doing it through the private system cos i have top level health insurance, i may as well get a kickin room to myself with cable tv and an ensuite! if im going to do this again, i will darn well be as comfy as possible! wink

like i said, im a veteran of surgery for my age, (it began with a partial left mastectomy at 13) but that doesnt make the idea any more palatable or pleasant. i wake up in the middle of the night gagging for air, because everything is blocked up, and that leads to anxiety- the whole hyperventilation etc. and when sleep is constantly disrupted, i get even more edgier and nervy.

i want the surgery in the school holidays because i dont want to leave my students with a substitute for too long- as i have mentioned i teach teens with 'behavioural' disorders and they dont tend to cooperate for subs. they like order, or they need order and they know me, therefore they tend to behave for me. (ADHD, ADD, E.D- emotionally disturbed).

so i need to find the time- at this stage i may have to wait until april, which is immensely frustrating. as i write this, i have 2 perforated eardrums and tonsilitis. i had a tonsillectomy in 2000, however the surgeon didnt remove all of them. the incompetent man left the roots of the tonsils behind, so i still get tonsilitis 8 to 12 times a year, even though i dont technically have any tonsils. i bled out on the table and ended up spending 2 weeks in hospital, instead of 2 days.. mad   i also bled during the sinus surgery and had to be transfused with a clotting factor.

im so tired of every day being a battle, both physically and mentally. i believe God will see me through this, but its just distressing. i try not to dwell on the negatives but sometimes they overwhelm me.

thankyou everyone who responded, you are all good for the soul! i feel well supported here. i will keep you posted- its just a rough patch at the moment- my agoraphobia is creeping back into my life and i thought i had it under control, but apparently not. it is so limiting, having boundaries that i cant cross- is anyone else here agoraphobic? ive been this way since i was 14.

Maz XX


'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, Polycystic Ovaries, Chronic ear/nose/throat infections, Panic Disorder, Reactive Arthritis, Agoraphobia, Migraines, GERD, Anaemia, Sinusitis, Chronically perforated eardrums, Pinched Nerves, IBS, Tachycardia, Allergies, Insomnia, Trichotilomania, Glandular Fever, Bursitis, Encapsulitis, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, Mild OCD.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Nexium. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie. XX.
 
 


stkitt
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   Posted 11/1/2008 4:33 PM (GMT -7)   

maz, 

You make sure you get the presdent's suite at the hospital. Youknow you can email me anytime.......just click on the blue envelope on the right.

I think we should write a book called HW for the Soul

Bless you
Kitt


 

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Mazfire
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   Posted 11/1/2008 5:00 PM (GMT -7)   

Thankyou Kitt, i tried to email you but the envelope icon on the left hand side didnt let me, it said it was currently disabled.

would love to chat,

Maz XX


'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Chronic Fatigue, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, Polycystic Ovaries, Chronic ear/nose/throat infections, Panic Disorder, Reactive Arthritis, Agoraphobia, Migraines, GERD, Anaemia, Sinusitis, Chronically perforated eardrums, Pinched Nerves, IBS, Tachycardia, Allergies, Insomnia, Trichotilomania, Glandular Fever, Bursitis, Encapsulitis, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, Mild OCD.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Nexium. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie. XX.
 
 


Howlyncat
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   Posted 11/1/2008 5:02 PM (GMT -7)   
Maz
I too am so sorry about what you are facving again
Nurse or not ( I am retired)
I know it would really flip me out and I have been thru
enough surgury and pain for a lifetime

I know tyou will make it'

HE will carry you ..........

God Bless
LYN
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percycat
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   Posted 11/1/2008 8:01 PM (GMT -7)   
Maz,

Try to have faith that slowly and surely, the battles will be won. Each day brings you closer to the time when you won't have to fight your own physical health daily, and can actually sit back and say "Wow! I feel good." even if it's just for a few moments at a time. Those moments are trying their best to link up into one big beautiful life for you!

Hugs,
percycat
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