That time of year again...

New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
[ << Previous Thread | Next Thread >> ]

Soonblue
Regular Member


Date Joined Aug 2007
Total Posts : 72
   Posted 11/24/2008 11:59 AM (GMT -7)   
Good afternoon everybody...

Long time no talk. It's been about ten months since I last posted. A few here might remember me; stkitt and howlyncat, you two would often respond to my posts and give great advice.

I've come a long way since my last bout with anxiety and I've learned a lot about exactly what's going on with me. I graduated from college about a year and a half ago and with that my student counselling ended. I stopped going to therapy for a while but last December when my mother was diagnosed with cancer again I began to see a new counsellor. She and I had about five sessions over the course of a month and we wound up discovering that the root of my problems seems to be an initial panic attack or attacks which then evolve into generalized anxiety for the next few weeks, during which time I feel like hell. mad

I've been on medication since February of 2007 for my anxiety. I'm currently on Celexa, and it seems to be working as over this past year I haven't had any anxiety attacks and the panic attacks I have experienced have only lasted a day or two. It's been a good year so far: new job, new girlfriend who I really think could be the one(I'm madly in love with her blush ), my mother reached the end of her chemotherapy treatments and so far is doing very well(she's so happy her hair has almost completely grown back!). I think one of my biggest accomplishments this year was taking a trip to Newport, RI in July to see all the big mansions and spend some time at the beach etc. While this might not sound like a big deal, for those of you who remember my posts from last year, one of my biggest fears has always been leaving home and/or disrupting my daily routine. While I had a HUGE panic attack the day before my girlfriend and I were due to drive up there, I forced myself to get through the initial attack and I'm happy to say we both had a wonderful weekend there. I came back feeling not only refreshed and ready to work, but more confident and proud of myself for being able to face down my fear. While it might seem terrifying and might make you want to run and hide in the biggest, softest bed you can find, covers over your head and all, this is something I strongly suggest anybody with travel anxiety do. I felt terrible the day before I left but the rewards after this trip were well worth it. I hadn't felt that self-confident and daring in ages. :-)

Now, I don't know whether it's because we're closing in on the same time at which my mother was diagnosed with cancer last year or whether it's the holidays in general, but I've been feeling fairly anxious over the past few days. I had a panic attack last Thursday evening while watching my girlfriend at her practice(she ice skates), and since then I've had the usual: nausea in the morning, nagging worry to the point where I can't sit still, etc. The thing I seem to be most dreading is the onset of the Thanksgiving holiday. My family is great and I'm not stressed at all to hang out with them, but I'm just not looking forward to not working(I know, unbelievable right?), or seeing my girlfriend for several days. I think it's the daily routine being disrupted. I rarely have enough to do on my days off and I wind up getting bored.

Interestingly, about three weeks ago I changed the time I take my dose of Celexa during the day from 7pm to 11:30pm, right before bed.

So, thoughts and comments would be wonderful. I'm sure lots of people here get holiday anxiety(Christmas shopping, eep!), so I'd like to hear your funny and/or whacky experiences and what you did to get over it, and also for anybody who's on Celexa and has changed the time they take it in the past, have you found that your anxiety has ramped up for a short time after you've done this, and how long did it last?

Thanks all, and good to be back after my long absence. Despite some of the doom and gloom in this post, lots and lots of great things happened this year, so if anybody is in need of hopeful stories, just ask and I'll make another post.

Georgie Girl
Regular Member


Date Joined May 2008
Total Posts : 319
   Posted 11/24/2008 3:04 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Soonblue
I haven't met you before on Healing Well as I've only been coming here since Apr 08.
Wow, you have certainly come a very long way in dealing with your anxiety and panic.  Your gal sounds great; good luck on continuing to grow that relationship.  Do you think that you may have some seasonal affective disorder (SAD) coming into play as the days get shorter?  Mine always is the worst in Jan and Feb and that's when my anxiety started to become unbearable earlier this year.  The holidays are often rough for those of us with depression, anxiety and panic (I am bipolar, can't remember I or II).  While my rough times focus in Jan and Feb my son starts feeling SAD in Dec.  Guess he is more sensitive to reduced sunlight than me. 
 
Good luck and continued wellness!

Georgie Girl


Georgie Girl


Soonblue
Regular Member


Date Joined Aug 2007
Total Posts : 72
   Posted 11/24/2008 3:52 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Georgie Girl,

Thanks for the response! I've wondered for a couple of years now whether or not I suffer from SAD; it's something I should probably look into as 3 out of the 4 really bad bouts of anxiety I've suffered have occurred between the months of October and February.

Can you describe some of your symptoms and how it creeps up on you?

My worst time is in the mornings, especially if it's a grey day.

Blue

Georgie Girl
Regular Member


Date Joined May 2008
Total Posts : 319
   Posted 11/24/2008 4:04 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Soon

Last winter and the winter before were the first times that I believe the SAD contributed to my anxiety (I was hospitalized the last full week of March, basically out of my mind with anxiety, don't remember but two hours of the hospitalization).  In Feb 07 though was when my anxiety began.  It started in Feb but didn't stop, kept getting worse for a year until it culminated in Mar 08 in the bad spell.  However, when I had "regular" SAD I would feel useless and hopeless, less energy than usual, sleeping more.   I got a full spectrum light to put up above my computer on a shelf.  It didn't help with my anxiety, I think it was just too bad,  but alot of people swear by them.  Also spending as much time out in the sun during the middle of the day as possible may help some. 

And yes, the morning are the worst for me as well.  I just can't get started.  I want to call in late to work every day and go back to sleep.  This is much worse than the routine not wanting to get up and go to work that I had prior to my anxiety exacerbation last spring.  I'm getting a little better each week though.

GG



Georgie Girl


Soonblue
Regular Member


Date Joined Aug 2007
Total Posts : 72
   Posted 11/24/2008 4:26 PM (GMT -7)   
Great to hear that you're feeling a bit better each week! With anxiety, take any silver lining you can find! :-)

I get my anxiety as a specific period once or twice a year. There's no way to tell WHEN these periods will hit, but when they do, they're almost always the following:

Initial panic attack lasting about an hour
Significant anticipatory anxiety manifesting as generalized anxiety for two to three weeks after the initial panic attack
One week of relatively low anxiety
One week of anticipatory anxiety again

So my attacks generally last a total of four to five weeks, after which I'm mostly fine for several months. I have a few low-grade days here and there but nothing to get in a twist over.

If you don't mind me asking, are you taking anything for your anxiety or are you in therapy etc? Don't have to answer if it's a sensitive topic.

Blue

Georgie Girl
Regular Member


Date Joined May 2008
Total Posts : 319
   Posted 11/24/2008 4:45 PM (GMT -7)   

Blue

I don't mind giving my medication history at all.  I am not in therapy.  I started it in Jul, did two sessions, and she and I both decided that I didn't really need it.  My anxiety was very definitely a brain chemistry thing, not something CBT is going to help.  (I'm not poo pooing CBT, just not for me at this time).  I take several medications:  Lamictal (mood stabilizer); Lexapro (antidepressant); Wellbutrin (an antidressant that works on a different brain chemical than Lexapro); and Deplin (this is actually a folate supplement that is supposed to help antidepressants work better.  May dump the Deplin as I'm not sure how much it's helping and insurance won't pay for it.   I take Zyprexa but only when my anxiety is really bad or I feel like it's coming on. The Zyprexa was the drug that finally zapped my bad anxiety last spring (it was a life saver).  I was also on Depakote but that made my hair fall out, made me super hungry (ate a dry, untoasted hot dog bun one night!), and gave me liver pain.  I stopped the Depakote.  Boy, that's alot of info - obviously I don't mind sharing.

 

GG

 


Georgie Girl


stkitt
Forum Moderator


Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 11/24/2008 4:46 PM (GMT -7)   

Soonblue,

Hello and I am glad to hear of the great strides you have made.

My sister was dx in August with cancer and was flown to the U of MN from North Dakota.  She has been here 104 days and just this morning she got to leave to go home for Thanksgiving.  I am thrilled for her.  She is fighting a tough battle.  She will be back in 10 days, one more chemo and then surgery in January.

Try to celebrate the holidays and kick the anxiety to the durn curb.

It's easy to get caught up in the enthusiasm of the holidays. However, if you don't take time for yourself, you'll quickly get burnt out and stressed out. Give yourself the gift of "alone" time. Fifteen minutes of solitude, without any distractions, may refresh you enough to handle the tasks at hand. Take a walk, listen to calming music, or meditate, or as I do, come here and post your feelings and thoughts as this is your private spot.

Keep talking to us, we care.
Hugs
Kitt
 

Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression
& GERD  Forums
*~*
http://www.healingwell.com/donate *~*
Not a mental health professional of any kind
It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.~Mahatma Gandhi~
Clickable Link: Anxiety-Panic Resources

New Topic Post Reply Printable Version
Forum Information
Currently it is Saturday, December 03, 2016 8:44 AM (GMT -7)
There are a total of 2,732,061 posts in 300,985 threads.
View Active Threads


Who's Online
This forum has 151152 registered members. Please welcome our newest member, JesperTrottier.
253 Guest(s), 16 Registered Member(s) are currently online.  Details
clo2014, shliv, ashlingd, Chellety, pmm73, colitisteen98, peanut307, Traveler, eat2bwell, snowboat, bdavis, JamesE, trumpet123, Mister Mike, Buddy Blank, joee


Follow HealingWell.com on Facebook  Follow HealingWell.com on Twitter  Follow HealingWell.com on Pinterest
Advertisement
Advertisement

©1996-2016 HealingWell.com LLC  All rights reserved.

Advertise | Privacy Policy & Disclaimer