i went out for lunch today with a group of teacher friends, to a yummy chinese restaurant. not only was i NOT anxious in any way, i also ate LOTS, which i never do when im out, as i hate that 'full' feeling, it triggers a fear of vomiting. i ate with gusto! i had the best day i have had in ages, felt so comfortable, and to be honest, i felt like i was living a normal life, doing things that i find tough, that everyone else take for granted.
the company was amazing, the food was delicious, and i didnt once have a negative thought about what i was doing. Normally i reserve sundays for a good sleep in, to allow my poor body to recover before the school week starts again and makes me hurt all over, and yes im tired, but it was worth it to have that afternoon of total normality.
i have 4 more functions in the next week, and i am experiencing anticipatory anxiety as i have to go into the beautiful, yet very crowded city of sydney- about an hour out of my comfort zone. but im not going to let negative self talk ruin this. i bought a hot new dress, some sexy shoes and by gosh, im going to act like im 28, not sleeping through my weekends like an old grandma (my fave past-time)
I also have presentation night at school this week- awards and certificates, trophies etc, its a great night, im always so proud cos my kids come from a hard knock life and its always awesome to see the look on their faces when they are affirmed positively for something they did well.
Much Love, i think its important to share even the smallest victories-
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS, Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.