Hello and welcome to HealingWell. You are not the only one that has a phobia of taking meds and if you feel strongly against taking the meds I would like to see you talk with your Pdoc and therapist to see what other methods you may try that do not involve meds.
Lexapro has helped many as well as others have concerns with it.
We have just started a thread on OCD as well as health anxiety if you would like to read those and join in I am sure you will get lots of support and ideas.
There are other alternatives to drugs but I am not a professional so I am so sorry I cannot tell you to take or not take your meds. That will be your decision.
May you have peace within,
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*