Hey Vel, i realise life sucks at the moment, but you have SO much to be happy about- you are married to a great man, you had a great thanksgiving, you are living in your own home, you got to see your family-
try to ignore the negative thoughts that eat away at you. i realise that is easier said than done, and you are feeling overwhelmed- i always found jounaling to be helpful. put your feelings into words that you can re-read. write down your successes as well as your darker times.
I pray you feel better soon and that you can see the light at the end of the tunnel- you have SO much to live for!!
Please go back and read the first part of your post and then remember the good parts, the wedding, the great guy, all you have going for you.
I understand what you are saying about insensitive co-workers making fun of the residents. If you feel assertive, please do speak up and tell your peers that you are uncomfortable with their comments about this resident. Remove yourself from the conversation if a group is making fun of people.
Residents have the right to be treated with diginity and you are giving it to them so be proud of you accomplishments.
You do not want to die.......................we all say that in times of severe stress but in reality death is not the answer and I believe in you.
Do you have a therapist? How about a visit to your PCP to get a good physical? Make sure you do not have any medical issues going on.
Please know we care and bless you.
Kitt, Co-Moderator: Anxiety/Panic & Depression& GERD Forums*~*