I've been having so many panic attacks lately...

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Twiggygal
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   Posted 12/25/2008 12:56 AM (GMT -7)   
It's frustrating.  It's the holidays and everyone says I should travel here or there or everywhere...
 
and I hate saying I can't
 
I want to say I can
 
but I can't.
 
I'm very irritated.
 
TG~
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Green Grove
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   Posted 12/25/2008 1:11 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi TG!!!

It's nice to meet you. Welcome to the A/P Forum. You will find a lot of great people and resources on here.

Happy Holidays ;)
Much Love, Hugs, Peace and Comfort!!!
Your Bro,
Sam
   
"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years"
~ Abraham Lincoln ~
 
Not a medical professional.  Seek your physician's advice
before making changes to your meds or lifestyle :)


Mazfire
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   Posted 12/25/2008 5:57 AM (GMT -7)   
TG, i totally understand. i want to be able to say yes to travelling, but i have agoraphobia and so many people dont understand the implications of that illness- i hope you find some relief from your situation, take care, you are never alone.
Maz XX
            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
 
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS,  Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo,  Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
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percycat
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   Posted 12/25/2008 6:05 AM (GMT -7)   
Twiggy,

I'm sorry that the panic is beating you up so much right now. Try to let go of the things you can't do, and focus on the ones you can. For instance, I'll bet you've got lots of excitement right in your own home with a new baby around the holidays. Think about the things you are able to do for your baby, and be proud of those.

And if you're feeling extra brave, why not invite people over, rather than going to see them? Don't worry about making the house perfect before you have guests - they'll understand, or else just lock them in one room!

percycat

stkitt
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   Posted 12/25/2008 7:15 AM (GMT -7)   

Twiggy,

Give yourself permission to kick the panic to the curb for this one day.

Lose the frustration and concentrate on all the wonderful things you have going for you.  Ignore what others tell you you should do about traveling right now and never feel guilty.  You are doing the best you can and today is a day of Peace.

(((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))

Kitt


 

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Twiggygal
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   Posted 12/25/2008 10:54 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Green Grove, been a member since 2006 but thanks hehe

Maz- it's so frustrating because i'd like to go SOMEWHERE!!!! instead of just to walmart

percy- I just wonder what my daughter is gonna think of her mom when she figures out what I have when she's older. She has the best I can give right now, but what about later?

Kitt- thanks, I appreciate that. It seems like my fiance's mother is always trying to pressure me into travelling and she just DOESN'T get it. It gets to me, and sometimes I'd like to smack her. LOL

Merry Christmas and happy holidays
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

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Green Grove
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   Posted 12/25/2008 1:54 PM (GMT -7)   
ROFLMBO :) Sorry Twiggy :) The fog is getting to me today. . . I think I was just saying hello and ended up welcoming you :) What a great day!

Merry Christmas!
Much Love, Hugs, Peace and Comfort!!!
Your Bro,
Sam
   
"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years"
~ Abraham Lincoln ~
 
Not a medical professional.  Seek your physician's advice
before making changes to your meds or lifestyle :)


Shia
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   Posted 12/25/2008 2:33 PM (GMT -7)   
Twiggy I feel same way... I just refused to go to Vegas :( But I know next year I'll be well enough to go.

Junebug05
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   Posted 12/25/2008 3:37 PM (GMT -7)   
Twiggy,
 
Good to see you back, but sorry that you are struggling right now.  I understand your situation so well, I've had many, many holidays that so much was expected of me that I just could not accomplish.  Now, I just do things my way and let everyone else do it theirs.  It's worked out wonderful for us.  My family is not very understanding and always expected to be involved in their plans, but I wasn't comfortable with that and they have now stopped inviting us.  It's allowed us to create our own traditions and enjoy the holidays the way we want to, it's much more peaceful and fun.  Try to be patient and know that you are in a temporary place right now, this too shall pass!
 
I, too, have a daughter and always worried about the effect of my problems on her, my anxiety started right after her birth, so it's all she's ever known.  My daughter, who is 19 years old now, is a very compassionate, understanding, caring young women.  She has always known about my anxiety and agoraphobia issues and has always been understanding of it.  As she grew up and joined teams, did school activities, etc., I just made sure that there was always someone who would take her, so she could always be involved.  I went to whatever I could when I could.  I did my best to give her the most normal childhood given my circumstances and although there were times when I felt awful that I couldn't make a school function, the things she remembers are the times I did make it, not the times I didn't.  Our best memories are not places we went, or didn't go, but the afternoons we spent playing in the yard, or the evenings we sat coloring on the living room floor or the nights, when she was about 4 years old, that we would stay up to watch the Golden Girls and eat cinnamon toast together.  You are a wonderful, caring mother who I know will do the very best for her little girl.  If you ever want to talk more about this, just e-mail me, I'd be glad to share my experience with you.  Sorry, didn't mean to go on so long.
 
Hope the rest of your day is wonderful.  Just concentrate on your daughter, your fiance and yourself and let the others expectations go. 

Mazfire
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   Posted 12/26/2008 2:16 AM (GMT -7)   

Aaaaaaaaaaaarrghhh! Twiggy, i KNOW! i want my social life back! i want to go back to being the happy-go-lucky extrovert of my past. I feel like im in prison- its amazing how much people take stuff like going places for granted, when i struggle with work, gorceries etc. i want to really go places. travel. have a huge night out in the city and just party! yeah

but i cant. i just cant. i sympathise. i feel like im 28, going on 90.

Maz XX


            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
 
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS,  Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo,  Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.
 
 


Twiggygal
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   Posted 12/27/2008 12:28 AM (GMT -7)   
Green- that's alright! LOL :)

Shia- I really REALLY want to go to Florida so badly!!! You will make it to vegas and I will make it to Florida

Junebug- you are so sweet! I love ya so much! I just am praying Mia is as understanding as your sweet daughter. You never know with kids. I'm going to try to go as much as I can to everything, and will try to expand my area of travel for sure! We can get better june. It's only a matter of time before we do. :)

Maz- I'm starting to get back to that happy-go-lucky lifestyle and we will get back to it! We will! I love you maz! We'll get better :)

Maybe I'll just book a flight to Cape Coral and see what happens

TG~
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
 
RX: Lorazepam (1 MG - 2 mgs a day), Lexapro (20 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines
 
 
IT'S A GIRL! Amelia Candice.
 
Born 7-7-08
6 lbs, 6 oz
19.5 inches long
 
 
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Green Grove
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   Posted 12/27/2008 1:00 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey TG :)

I wish you the best of luck in your travels! I think that is something I've been missing out on as I've got older because of fear to leave too far from home and what's familiar. I really respect and admire all of you that just do it :)

Take care of yourself!!!
Much Love, Hugs, Peace and Comfort!!!
Your Bro,
Sam
   
"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years"
~ Abraham Lincoln ~
 
Not a medical professional.  Seek your physician's advice
before making changes to your meds or lifestyle :)


Mazfire
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   Posted 12/27/2008 4:42 AM (GMT -7)   

Twiggy i would be honoured to have you as a fun travel companion!  yeah but seriously, lets face our fears and beat them DOWN, girl!

lets stop AP holding us back from the good stuff life has to offer!

Here's to 2009, a year for positive change!

Maz XX


            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
 
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS,  Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo,  Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.
 
 


Twiggygal
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   Posted 12/27/2008 7:41 PM (GMT -7)   
Exactly maz! I'm going to try and go to Wisconsin and visit a casino or antique mall or something in 09'. I haven't been to WI in over 4 years (and it's only an hour from me!)

Lame I know but it's a start!

:)

TG~
"Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars."

DX: Panic Disorder, Depression, TMJ (Temporomandibular Joint Disorder), Chronic Migraines
 
RX: Lorazepam (1 MG - 2 mgs a day), Lexapro (20 MG a day), Tylonel for the TMJ and Migraines
 
 
IT'S A GIRL! Amelia Candice.
 
Born 7-7-08
6 lbs, 6 oz
19.5 inches long
 
 
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Mazfire
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   Posted 12/27/2008 11:17 PM (GMT -7)   

you are right, its a start, and you gotta start somewhere! go girl!

Maz XX


            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
 
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS,  Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo,  Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.
 
 


Aries8
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   Posted 12/27/2008 11:47 PM (GMT -7)   
I was mildly agoraphobic after the birth of my oldest daughter. I refused to let it get to me. I was not going to be a prisoner in my home. And there was no way I was going to subject my daughter to that. So, I made myself go into the grocery store even though I was terrified. I went to the movies by myself. I would drive places I was afraid to go. Even if it was to just sit in the car when I arrived. It's not easy, I know. My agoraphobia didn't last long. But I know the fear. Take small steps and speak to yourself positively.

Also, I've never told my daughters the whole story of my anxiety/panic attacks because I'm afraid they will begin to have anticipatory anxiety. They get anxious from time to time and that's when I share my knowledge of relaxation techniques. I hope all of you are able to do some traveling without discomfort some day.

Junebug05
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   Posted 12/28/2008 6:44 PM (GMT -7)   
Twiggy,
 
You ever want to go to WI to the casino you give me a call!  I love to go to Turtle Lake casino...yummy buffet. 
 
Hugs to you!

Nanners
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   Posted 12/29/2008 10:35 AM (GMT -7)   
Twiggy,

I have lived for 33 years with a chronic and incurable bowel disease and boy do I understand your statement about travel. Everytime I would plan a trip and even go on it, I would get the worst anticipatory anxiety. i.e. What if I get sick on the trip, what if I ruin the trip for my husband, etc. Finally I was prescribed Xanax at a time when I was planning my first trip to Guadalajara, Mexico to visit my husbands family. My anxiety went thru the roof as soon as I booked the tickets. It was so bad but with this sites help and the Xanax I went on the trip and had the best time ever. We just went again this past November and for our Christmas present just booked another trip for February 2009. I am sure that if I were to plan a trip to somewhere else the anxiety would return, but I know with the help of my Xanax, I can try to travel somewhere else and have little to no problems now. I am sure when the time is right you will be able to travel again. Good luck!
Been living with Crohn's Disease for 33 years.  Currently on Asacol, Prilosec, Estrace, Prinivil, Diltiazem, Percoset prn for pain, Zofran, Phenergan, Probiotics, and Calcium.  Resections in 2002 and 2005.  Also diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and Osteoarthritis. Currently my Crohns is in remission.

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