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missy5
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Date Joined Dec 2008
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   Posted 12/27/2008 11:28 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi All,

I am new to this forum. I have always had anxiety but found I could manage it. about two months ago, something happened. I began having terrible physical symptoms, but at the time I thought I was handling those. I was doing positive self-talk, reminding myself not to think the worst, etc. etc. The symptoms did not go away, in fact they increased. I felt off balance all the time, which led to excessive worry about what was wrong with me. Horrible trembling spells, which I would just lie in bed and try to stay calm about. I was not aware that I was feeling anxious during these incidents. After a few weeks, I did become anxious. I had horrible agitation that was making every moment of my life torture. Urinating all the time, dry mouth -- all my body systems sped up. After a battery of tests, they diagnosed me with GAD. I intensely resisted this diagnosis and still can't quite get my brain around it. I still feel that what has made me anxious are the physical symptoms. The most disturbing one now is that my legs (and arms to some extent) feel terribly weak. They are like jelly. I can't really do normal activities. I take a walk, then have to sit or lie down because my legs are jelly. This is terrifying me. I am trying very hard to be disciplined and stay off the internet, but I do have hypochondria about it.

I started on buspar five days ago and it seems to be taking a little bit of the edge off, but overall life is still very, very difficult and physically I still feel that I am sick and weak.

Has anyone experienced a sudden onset of GAD with intense physical symptoms such as I describe? Has anyone taken buspar? I DO NOT want to hear horror stories about the drug. Only positive feedback, please.

I have a prescription for klonopin. Many people are urging me to take it but I am terrified of side effects and withdrawal. So I have decided to stick with my plan to try buspar.

I would be interested in hearing positive outcomes from stories like mine.

Thanks in advance,
Missy

Marie-Claire
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   Posted 12/27/2008 11:38 AM (GMT -7)   

 Hello Missy,

Welcome to Healing Well. You have been blessed to have found us , as this is THE best forum for anxiety / panic etc.... We have all become 'family' here and support one another through everything. You will find people here very caring and encouraging, but also very constructive and knowledgeable. Anxiety has reaked havoc in all of our lives at one point or another. The moderators here will have very good advice for you as will members who are presently taking the same meds you are. I take neither of these meds so cannot offer any info on them , but I will tell you that I have had the same symptoms you are experiencing. They are terrifying for sure.... What tests have they have you take? did you have an MRI or Scan .... have they ruled out other possibilities before arriving at GAD. Anxiety has/ can/ will manifest itself in all these symptoms you describe. Do you remember anything triggering the onset of these symptoms? Just asking/wondering.

I am sending you warm thoughts, many healing prayers. Hang in there... someone will be coming along soon here, with better information for you... in the meantime... welcome to our family... try to stay in the moment and know that I am praying for you and hoping your physical symptoms ease very soon.

Mary


51 yr.old retired RN,Crohn's D for last35 yrs..severe esophagitis, migraines,strictures,urethral stricture,depression,probable MS.,RLS, arthritis, PTSD ,general anxiety disorder.
 
 


Hibee
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   Posted 12/27/2008 12:14 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Missy

Welcome to HealingWell you have found a great forum with lots of people who know what you are going through and can give good advice and support. I have suffered with anxiety/depression for most of my life but was only diagnosed with GAD a year and half ago. Anxiety can cause many symptoms which do include the ones you mention i to suffer with dry mouth and the need to urinate frequently i constantly feel tired and have terrible insomnia. There is a big list of other symptoms and these can resemble other things and i am awful for googleing and convincing myself that there is something else wrong with me. I find GAD a hard thing to deal with and often think i just want it to go, I had some CAT which is a type of therapy and found this really helped me and i am due to have some CBT soon which is a similar sort of therapy which has good results with people who are suffering with anxiety and i know a lot of the members have had good results with this type of therapy so this might be something you could consider?. With regards to medications i have not tried the ones you are on but i have tried similar ones, Klonopin in a benzo and this form of medication does help when you are feeling anxious so i would give it a try i take Tamazepam which is in the same class of drugs and find this works well for me.

I hope things start to improve for you soon and my thoughts are with you. Keep posting to tell us how you are getting on as we do care and understand what you are going through.

Take Care

Ben

missy5
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Date Joined Dec 2008
Total Posts : 10
   Posted 12/27/2008 12:26 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks for the prompt replies and warm welcome.

Yes, I had a brain MRI, heart tests, and lots of blood tests. The only triggering incident I can think of is that right around when this started my job changed. There were layoffs and I was very worried about that, but in fact I did not get laid off only transferred.

I'm stumped as to why that would trigger this major upheaval. I do have a history of an abusive childhood but was in therapy for that for years in my late twenties, when I also suffered from panic/anxiety. I thought I had worked through it all.

Now (at 46) it's this amorphous constant fear and dread. I just went out to bring my daughter to an activity, and the whole time I'm driving I feel this hollow in the pit of my stomach that I know is fear. And yet I can't name what I'm afraid of. Well, I am in therapy and working with CBT principles, so hopefully that will help. The thing that throws me is when the physical symptoms come on strong. For instance, right now I'm shaking and not sure why. I just have to try and stop my thoughts and remember that this too shall pass.

Grateful to all for sharing experiences and hope --

Missy

Green Grove
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   Posted 12/27/2008 12:31 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Missy and Welcome to the HW Family :)

I have had the same issues as you in the past and I work really hard at controlling these symptoms. As Mary said there are so many people on here going through the same thing. Klonopin has and does help me control my GAD and I also use things like relaxation, exercise, yoga, meditation, CBT, Zen living, etc. I call it my Anxiety Military Manuevers Arsenal :) lol. . . You will find the links to these different exercises in our resources at the top of the page. Just click on the links and start learning great knowledge.

Ben had mentioned the thing about "googling symptoms". . . Most all of us are guilty of that and we strongly recommend not to and to consult you Pdoc about any issues you may have. I am also a supporter of a second opinion or third if it will help ease the anxiety :)

Hope you get to feeling better. . . A mod will be on here soon to give you even more great advice and a warm welcome!!!


Much Love, Hugs, Peace and Comfort!!!
Your Bro,
Sam
   
"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years"
~ Abraham Lincoln ~
 
Not a medical professional.  Seek your physician's advice
before making changes to your meds or lifestyle :)

Post Edited (Green Grove) : 12/27/2008 2:16:33 PM (GMT-7)


Georgie Girl
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Date Joined May 2008
Total Posts : 319
   Posted 12/27/2008 1:30 PM (GMT -7)   
Dear Missy
Yes, I can relate.  When I have bad anxiety, it is like someone has kicked me in the stomach/chest and like I've just gotten very bad news about someone I love.  It is a horrible feeling, and especially so when it goes on and on, as mine did.
 
I took Buspar for a couple of weeks. Didn't seem to help my anxiety.  I had no bad side effects.  Everyone is different, sounds like it might be working for you. 
 
GG
Georgie Girl


Mazfire
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   Posted 12/27/2008 2:53 PM (GMT -7)   

Missy, welcome. Anxiety is sheer hell, and as you are experiencing, beginning to take meds wreaks havoc on your body and mind, but it WILL pass and you will feel a whole lot better in the long run. Good on you for seeking treatment and taking the steps to regain control of your life. we are always here to listen, i hope you stay with us and keep us posted.

take care, Maz XX


            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
 
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOD, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS,  Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo,  Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.
 
 


stkitt
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   Posted 12/27/2008 3:39 PM (GMT -7)   

Missy,

Welcome to HealingWell and the  & P forum
I have found the support, validation and encouragement that I receive here, to be so helpful and healing. I hope and trust that will be your experience as a member of the HW family.

I have GAD so I know where your coming from and what your going through.  I also take Buspar as a part of my arsenal to ward off the anxiety. It was added a while back and I took it for awhile and thought it was OK but not a big help so I quit taking it.  My Pdoc put me back on it and I have to admit I do see the difference. It is an old med but I think it works. You will read negative and postives about all meds................I promise you that. smhair    So if you like the med and it is helping take it.

I do use Valium daily too, a small dose. :-)

Here is a quick breathing exercise you can practice and use it when you are stuck, but practice it until you can just do it.  You may be surprise how all the little things help.

Belly Breathing

Belly Breath Exercise

1. Lie on your back and place one hand on your stomach and one on your chest.

2. As you inhale, fill your belly with a slow, even breath, and watch your hand rise on your belly and stay still on your chest.

3. Exhale gently and watch you hand fall as you slowly and evenly breathe out.

4. Repeat for five minutes and practice every single day.

Use this technique when you are under stress for relief. It is also important to practice this breathing technique when you are not under stress. Practice when you are watching TV, sitting at a stoplight, before you fall asleep, or during breaks from work. Practicing when you are not stressed will enhance you well-being and give you mastery over the exercise so that when you need it you will be confident in your skills.

Bless you and I am so glad you are doing the CBT.

Again a warm welcome.

Kitt


 


 

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Junebug05
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Date Joined Sep 2006
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   Posted 12/27/2008 7:17 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi missy and welcome to HW.  I'm glad that you found this site, it is the best place for support and encouragement.  All of the symptoms you mentioned, I have experienced with anxiety and I understand completely that you worry that something more than anxiety is wrong, I've been there many, many times.  I'm glad that you are using cbt, that is what has helped me the most, along with a small dose of meds. 
 
I took buspar, for a short time, way back when all of this started for me, in 1989 and was told then that it takes a few weeks to work to it's full potential.  Not sure of the validity of that, I was just told that by one doctor, but thought I'd mention it, just to let you know it's a possibility that you may want to check into. 
 
Have you ever read any books by Claire Weekes?  Her books are what get me through the worst of times.  She has a wonderful way of describing the symptoms of anxiety that is easy to understand and makes sense of what is going on.  I hope that you will continue to post, you will find so many others who are going through the same things you are and that in itself is a comfort.

missy5
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Date Joined Dec 2008
Total Posts : 10
   Posted 12/27/2008 7:29 PM (GMT -7)   
Thanks to everyone for your thoughtful and caring responses.

I've spent the evening feeling totally sick and just convincing myself it's not anxiety -- must be something else, a virus or something. Nuts, huh? I'm trying to do my self-talk and CBT but it's amazing how the obsessive thoughts bounce back against it.

Has anyone experienced just feeling sick all the time with anxiety? It's not like it comes and goes when I get anxious. It's just always there. I guess that's why it's hard for me to believe that it's anxiety.

Thanks for all the recommendations. I will look them up.

I would love to hear more experiences with medication. I'm very medication phobic but I'm at a point of desperation.

Thanks,
Milva

Green Grove
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   Posted 12/27/2008 7:32 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Milva,

I actually feel sick and nauseated a good chunk of the time from anxiety and pain (which cause anxiety) It is just a viscious cylce sometimes.
Much Love, Hugs, Peace and Comfort!!!
Your Bro,
Sam
   
"And in the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years"
~ Abraham Lincoln ~
 
Not a medical professional.  Seek your physician's advice
before making changes to your meds or lifestyle :)


Junebug05
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Date Joined Sep 2006
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   Posted 12/27/2008 7:38 PM (GMT -7)   
I've spent many nights like that, feeling symptoms and convincing myself that I have some terrible disease.  It's not nuts, just what anxiety can do to a person.  Obsessive thoughts are the worst, I just try to keep my mind occupied as much as I can with a book, a craft,  anything to keep me busy.  I'm needing to do alot that now as I'm obsessing over a dental procedure I have to have.  Keep using the cbt and try thinking positive thoughts, "like this is just anxiety and it can't hurt me, there is nothing physically wrong with me", etc. and just allow the anxiety to be there.  It really cannot hurt you and it will pass, if you let it.   Let me know if there is anything I can do to help. 
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