All right, I can break things down simply... starting with... I know I have Crohn's. I know when I'm feeling well... I know when I'm not feeling well...
Anything else beyond that is... confusing. I know when I am not feeling well... not right...whether pertaining to my illness or not... I worry... is my worrying justifiable?
If I am well, but then I suddenly not feel well, is my worrying justifiable?
And whether or not, it's healthy.... That's confusing, too. Because what if something does turn out to be really wrong?
Or maybe it doesn't... but you still seem to have problems... and nobody knows what to do about it really except maybe say that it's all in your head... Like in the cases of fibromyalgia, restless leg syndrome, etc. Or like they used to say with asthma and diabetes before the medical field advanced enough to recognize these things and treat them...
I am actually feeling pretty well right now... No tummy pain... I am having joint pain (cause unknown), but I'm dealing with it all right... I haven't had a day yet where it feels like my knees are being smashed in (that's happened a few times before)... I guess I'm just in a philosophical kind of mood right now... or maybe I'm just really tired (I have this habit of thinking interesting things when I'm tired... like.... why there are rectangular windows and circular windows.... but you hardly ever see triangular windows)
I think I am being picked on by life, sometimes. But's that okay. Life and I are good buddies... I know life doesn't mean no harm. It just is the way it is. I can accept that.