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Mazfire
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   Posted 1/6/2009 3:28 PM (GMT -7)   
Morning Family- yes i am acutely aware that i am 17hrs ahead... its blistering hot at the moment, we have locked ourselves in the house with the air-con on full tilt. we are also on bushfire alert. its 43 degrees celcius here.
 
Anyway, after another sleepless night  (too darn hot) i came up with today's question:
 
"Is there something you want to do, but your AP is holding you back?"
 
I know a part of me would like to travel and be more of a social butterfly, the way i used to be, but i feel trapped by my agoraphobia.
I would love to have the time and money to study even more and get my Masters in adolesant welfare, but the thought of leaving the security of my job and going back to school is quite nerve wracking.
I would also like to meet new guys- but my AP born insecurities stop me from doing this way too much.
I would love to live in a neat and ordrely environment, but my room is organised chaos- kinda like me at times.
I want to totally control my AP. not let IT control ME.
 
Now that i have recognised these things, maybe i can start working on them, one baby step at a time?
 
Maz XX


            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
 
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOS, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS,  Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo,  Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic. Nexium.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.
 
 


stkitt
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Date Joined Apr 2007
Total Posts : 32602
   Posted 1/6/2009 5:56 PM (GMT -7)   

Yes, I want to be my old self and not be unhappy so much so I am kicking this crap to the curb and getting on with my life.

You are all in good hands now with the new mods and so many members making new friends and helping each other.  Keep it up.

Remember I care deeply for all of you.

Hugs

Kitt


 

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nervymeg
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   Posted 1/6/2009 6:52 PM (GMT -7)   

Maz,

What a lovely inspiration you are. I would love to be able to simply be comfortable in my own skin and stop caring so much what people think of me. Baby steps..we can do it!

Kitt,

We all care deeply for you too.

Megs


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Panic Attack Survivor
 


Mazfire
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   Posted 1/6/2009 7:23 PM (GMT -7)   
nervymeg said...

Kitt,

We all care deeply for you too.

Megs


Ditto that, Kitt! cant imagine this place without you, you put some major soul and energy into this forum and i know that many, many people are grateful. Love you bunches,

Maz XX


            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
 
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOS, Chronic E.N.T infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, Sinusitis, IBS,  Allergies, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo,  Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic. Nexium.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.
 
 


nervymeg
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   Posted 1/6/2009 9:23 PM (GMT -7)   

Maz,

Have you taped yourself to the fridge yet? lol! It's a scorcher over there. I am glad to be down here in chill land. Loves ya sista,

Meg xx


Co-moderator Anxiety/Panic
Panic Attack Survivor
 


bigcc_1976
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Date Joined Aug 2008
Total Posts : 94
   Posted 1/6/2009 10:23 PM (GMT -7)   
I also would like to get back to my old self.  I used to be able to go for a trip at a moments notice, travel across the U.S. by vehicle or plane and just take my time.  Now I find myself dreading the travel and when I do travel I try and get to my destination as fast as I can...  I want to slow my pace and enjoy life and all that this awesome land has to offer.  I WANT TO TRAVEL.

Green Grove
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   Posted 1/6/2009 10:59 PM (GMT -7)   
Back to being me again also. I miss working full time, traveling, hiking, skating, rafting, etc. . . Of course the cane does not help either. I have a hard enough time taking care of the farm and those I love through the pain which makes me even more anxious. . . That the way the cookie crumbles though so no complaints, eh :) Not meaning to sound negative or anything because the one great thing about this DD is all of you great people :) Thanks for being there/here or wherever we are, lol. . .
Take care and have a wonderful day! . . . Your Bro . . . Sam :)
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Aries8
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   Posted 1/6/2009 11:29 PM (GMT -7)   
I would like to live my life without fear.

Mazfire
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Date Joined Oct 2008
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   Posted 1/7/2009 12:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Aries8 said...
I would like to live my life without fear.


Amen sister!!!!!!!!

"A life lived in fear, is a life half lived." anon


            'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)                  
 
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ disorder, Endometriosis, PCOS, Chronic E.N.T and Upper respiratory tract infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD,  IBS, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood  Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo,  Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic. Nexium.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:28. First diagnosed at 14. Proud Aussie.
 
 


SleepyBug
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Date Joined Nov 2008
Total Posts : 1097
   Posted 1/7/2009 9:02 AM (GMT -7)   
this is a good question!

i, too, want to feel comfortable in my own skin. also, ever since i was an itty bitty little girl, i have been a singer. i think i started singing before i started talking! as a young one, i would sing for family and friends and in the local choir, but somewhere along the way, i got scared of being in front of people and stopped singing. aside from one year when i was in the local christmas choir, i haven't sung in public in 25 years. i wonder sometimes if denying that part of myself has contributed to my a/p issues in some way?
love and hugs
~danielle

this being human is a guest house.
every morning a new arrival-a joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awarenewss comes as an unexpected visitor.
welcome and entertain them all!
even if they're a crowd of sorrows, who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably
he may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
~rumi


Junebug05
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   Posted 1/7/2009 8:49 PM (GMT -7)   
I want to live without fear, have a life, and be comfortable with who I am.  I also want to drive again.  I sure miss that!
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