Try not to beat yourself up Ben- you said it yourself, your drinking is a problem- with alcohol being a depressant you arent going to have a feeling of balance and peace while its in your system. You need to get to the root of WHY you drink- especially when you know how bad it is when mixed with meds. I think its time to see your Pdoc and get something happening, cos you cant keep living the cycle of panic and alcohol, there has to be another way to deal with those anxious feelings. you have not let any of us down, we are here for you always.
take care and hang in there, yeah?
p.s im 28, all my friends are married or similar and im single and i envy their happiness and companionship quite often, i understand that.
I am sorry you are in a bad place right now. I hope you can get the help you need to beat this anxiety. The support from the members is awesome.
To take your mind off of what is happening with you perhaps spend time each day responding to some of our members that are in the same dire straights as you are. That helps me .
I quit worrying about me as my head is busy trying to come up with ways to post to the others.
Just my 2 cents for today.
Take care my friend
You are an asset to this forum okay? I won't let you add guilt to your list!! You know the link between alcohol and anxiety, but there is also a link between alcohol and relationships. I have bounced from one failed relationship to the next for years until I quit. I still relapsed a few times in my current relationship..but my fella forgave me and we have been together 4 years now.
Once you are happier within yourself then you will be ready for a relationship..until then, you need to take care of YOU. (I'm sure many girls in France are sighing in disapointment now...!!!!)