I hear you loud and clear and i think the best thing is when you next see your psychiatrist, to get the meds balanced out properly so you can manage without living with constant anxiety- in the meantime, welcome to HW, we are here for you and all suffer from Anxiety & Panic, so we can sympathise, support and encourage you. You are not alone.
Welcome to HealingWell.
You are using 2 physicians and alcohol to deal with your problems. You need to have a straight talk with your Pdoc and get a plan in place. You mixing ADs and benzos and liquor.
IMHO you are skating on thin ice so please do see your physician.
Remember you have anxiety it does not have you.