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electrogirltm
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   Posted 1/14/2009 4:06 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello, thanks for reading! 
I am a 22 year old female that has experienced anxiety and panic attacks since my early teenage years.  I have made extrodinary attempts and efforts in getting my life in order.  I feel that my disorder has crippled me in certain ways from just living a normal life.  It has been so difficult in holding a job, I have failed almost every class, and my relationships are a disaster.  I was also recently diagnosed with Bipolar II.  I have been treated with celexa, celexa+xanax, and now depakote.  I feel like nothing is working and although I want to remain positive I am having an even harder time as the years progress.  Along with trying to cope with my anxiety and panic I have fought through alcoholism.  Everyday is a battle.  When I drink I feel normal, like I can function and has been the only way for me to keep a job.  I went out the other night and felt so overwhelmed with anxiety I couldn't control my breathing like normal and felt as if i was going to pass out when my knees started to buckle and I had to sit down.  A couple drinks and I was eventually back to "me" again.  I am a very bright, intelligent girl with so many aspirations and goals, but having this disorder has come in the way of showing that and living up to my full potential.  I have been working night and day to live a normal life.  I'll be a bubbly person one day at work and then the next day I can't get out of bed from shaking and irrational fears.  I am not looking for a cure, may be some advice on medications, what kind of doctor to see.  I have been seeing a family doctor, but many doctors are leery it seems to give out medications like xanax, since they can be addictive.  I guess what I am looking for is some new suggestions, something that I haven't tried yet because I surely don't want to give up especially when I am working so hard!!  So if anyone has any suggestions please share!  I am also concerned with the faintish feeling.  I don't know if it is possible to really faint when becoming so dizzy.  I have also been experiencing panic attacks in my sleep waking up dizzy and disorientated.  When I wake I feel a faintish, surreal feeling throughout more nights of the week.  If anyone has experienced any of these please share as well.
 
Thank you to whoever takes the time to read and respond!  Very much appreciated!

gilly-love
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   Posted 1/14/2009 4:19 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi babe...I know what you are going through and you need to get a referral to a specialist...Bipolar needs particuliar special needs and requirements from both you and the doc. Counciling, theropy, monitoring and medication. Unless you have an awesome doc that can give you hours in the week to get this under control you need to seek further medical treatment from the psyc team. With Bipolar some drugs will trigger manic or depressive states and they have to be monitored. You will get this under control with appropiate meds and learn the warning signs to episodes and changes in state. Sorry if i have said to much and I hope i have said the right thing....Just my opinion babe...Take care and welcome to the family.Gillxx
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percycat
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   Posted 1/14/2009 6:58 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello, electrogirltm, and welcome!

You'll find that lots of us here have much in common with you. You might also want to check out our BiPolar forum here on HealingWell.

The medication issue isn't always simple, as you're finding out. I have a primary care physician (PCP) who is very much on the ball about antidepressants and antianxiety drugs, but not every PCP is. Some folks get clearer information and support by seeing a psychiatrist instead, or even non-MD therapist who can at least talk with them about medications (even though only MDs can prescribe).

What's clear from our variety of experiences in this forum is that every person and medication treatment are different. What works for one person may be near useless for another. Do try to find a prescriber who can help you to make informed and helpful choices.

Again, welcome!

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Green Grove
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   Posted 1/14/2009 1:42 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Electrogirltm :)

Welcome to HealingWell!

I have to agree with what has already been said before. You need to speak to your doctor about what is going on in your life and get some meds to help you with your issues. It also would not hurt to see a therapist also. I know you feel like it won't work but you also had great things to say about yourself also. It all comes down to whether or not you want to start dealing with your problems in a healthy way to complete schooling and be able to work. . . Or let it consume you. I think you know the right choice you need to make in your life. Recovery is not something to put of for the future. You need to start today my friend :)

And don't worry too much about the dizzy/fainting feelings. They are a common symptom that many of us have. It is mostly from a lack of oxygen because it is hard to breathe properly while stressed. If you check our our Anxiety-Panic Resources thread at the top of the page you will find some links to different Breathing and Relaxation Techniques and also a link to a wonderful free therapy (CBT) called MoodGYM. You can work it at your own pace and it is online which is a plus :) Also check out and post in our other threads like the Anticipatory Anxiety one to read what other members go through and the ways they have learned to cope. Feel free to post your story there as well :)

It is nice to meet you and I hope you have a good day :)
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Hibee
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   Posted 1/14/2009 2:33 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Electrogirltm

Welcome to healing well and sorry to hear you are going through all this at the moment anxiety is a hard thing to deal with and as other members have said we can relate to what you are going through. I have tried a number of different medication and my pdoc works closely with my doctor to decide what medication i should be taking for my GAD/Depression I have found that being truthful with my doctor and telling them exactly how I am feeling has given them the facts so they can then decide the best plan of action. I would recommend therapy of some sort maybe CBT? I have had therapy and found it very helpful.

I hope things start to improve for you and know we are here to support you.

Take Care

Ben

electrogirltm
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   Posted 1/14/2009 5:20 PM (GMT -7)   
thank you so much all of you! i just got off the phone with a local pychiatrist and my family doctor. how would i go about finding local CBT?

Green Grove
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   Posted 1/14/2009 9:35 PM (GMT -7)   
Here is the link for the free online CBT program called MoodGYM:
 
 
You are doing great. . . I love to see members come on here and jump right away into recovery :)  You are an inspiration for many!
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stkitt
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   Posted 1/15/2009 10:34 AM (GMT -7)   
Hey there, electrogirltm, and welcome!
This is Kitt and I am so glad you found us.  You have met some of our wonderful members............the CBT is great and I am working on it myself...........so do take a look at it.
 
Also we have lots of Resources if you look to the right just click on what may interest you.
 
Again, Welcome.
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Aries8
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   Posted 1/15/2009 11:36 AM (GMT -7)   
Welcome!
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Howlyncat
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   Posted 1/15/2009 12:05 PM (GMT -7)   
Welcome to HW and I sure hope you do stick arond
Get to know the good ppl here that truly do care bout others
Support is the key IMHO

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percycat
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   Posted 1/15/2009 12:11 PM (GMT -7)   
Regarding finding a local therapist who practices CBT, I think it may take a little legwork on your part, but here's what I'd have done if a friend hadn't found my CBT therapist for me (hurray!):

1) Check the web sites of any local therapists or therapy practices. Many will list their specialties outright.
2) Call those that don't have web sites. You can simply say, "I'm interested in beginning cognitive behavioral therapy treatment. Do you have any staff members who specialize in that?/Do you specialize in that?"

Good luck!

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electrogirltm
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   Posted 1/15/2009 3:58 PM (GMT -7)   
yay! thank you all! i'm feeling better (positive) already! it's great to know that you always have options out there AND people who are/have experienced the same!! i already have appointments set up in just a few days and am excited about the resources provided! i only wish i had been active on this site sooner!

Green Grove
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   Posted 1/15/2009 4:01 PM (GMT -7)   
We are glad you are a part of this family! I'm happy that things are looking brighter for you. I also wish I would have found this site years ago, because it has been a blessing for me. . . But as the saying goes. . . "Better late than never!"

Take care my friend and keep us posted :)
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didntno
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   Posted 1/19/2009 1:27 AM (GMT -7)   
What about St. Johns Wort to try...you can get it at any drug store. I used it for a year or so and it helped me immensely get through a really rough patch as you are going through and I was self medicating as well - this was the only thing that helped me. I didn't take the recommended dose on the bottle, I started off with one a day and then increased as needed/when needed and then eventually I didn't need it anymore...I recommended it to my cousin and uncle. It's worked great for my cousin (she took it as I did), my uncle on the other hand it didn't work so well for him because he took the recommended dose stated on the bottle and it wigged him out...go slow, don't rush it. It's helped me and my family maybe it will help you find your balance, calm things down enough to function - then you'll be functioning for a while and then maybe you won't need it anymore....

If you do decide to try it be sure to talk with your dr about it if your taking any other medications...vitamin supplements even though they're over the counter can react badly with prescribed meds so just be responsible...

Just a thought!

Good luck, I know it's hard.

Take Care

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Mazfire
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   Posted 1/19/2009 3:45 AM (GMT -7)   

is it possible to cut back your alcohol? as it is a depressant, it will mess with your body chemistry and interact with meds. i know that is easier said than done, but just a thought.

please stay with us and keep us posted, we are here always,

Maz XX


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Aries8
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   Posted 1/19/2009 11:45 AM (GMT -7)   
Garen, you've got it! We are to accept anxiety and not fight it. It will not last as long and may not be as scary. There are books that will teach you how to do this. Pick one up!
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Aries8
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   Posted 1/19/2009 11:47 AM (GMT -7)   
P.S. Garen, I didn't realize you are so young and having to deal with anxiety. You seem to be coping well! hang in there and let us know if you need help!
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jazzy29
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   Posted 1/19/2009 1:30 PM (GMT -7)   

Hi Electro......and good input Garen.

Welcome and i just wanted to say that i wake up in the night with the same anxiety and irrational thoughts sometimes. I deff find that not freaking myself out about the thoughts does help. We all have strange thoughts but as that have anxiety can get really scared of them and feel spaced out etc(hard to explain)

My anxiety is alot better than recently as i had a big setback for a couple of months. I didnt realise anxiety could produce such scary symptoms and thats coming from someone who has had anxiety since teens like you and i am now 31.

Best wishes to you and glad to hear you are feeling more positive.

Jazzy x

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