thanks Aries, im on my 2nd course of ultra strong antibiotics, but my body has built a resistance to them and they dont seem to be working. im so strung out from lack of sleep, pain meds making me fuzzy, feeling like crap etc.
thanks so much for your kind words, means the world. im going to take you advice and go watch some tv and hopefully doze off.
Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002. Medications: Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.
Hi beautiful family- thanks so much for your support. i have now spiked a fever and am very nauseous and dizzy. my bones ache, my head is beyond fuzzy. the pressure in my head from the sinus issues is just huge, feels like my head may explode- not pretty at all
Thankyou ALL so much for kind words and advice, im feeling quite edgy/restless/anxious simply cos of the fever mixed with the rest of it, and lack of proper, refreshing sleep. i made the mistake of having some breakfast, and now i just want to vomit. My BP is very low (mum is a nurse, she took it) and i feel like ive been hit by a bus.
Ive done the sunday roll call and will check in later, you all make me smile with your caring spirits- i hate burdening my family and friends with this stuff, cos im sick so often, thats all they hear and they deserve a break (not that they complain, i just dont want to put it all on them)
I know i am safe and cared for here- you are special people, and you accept and dont judge.
God bless guys,
Post Edited (Mazfire) : 1/17/2009 5:02:57 PM (GMT-7)
Hello my Dear Maz,
It sounds to me, Dr. FeelGood, like you need to be in a hospital with IV antibiotics and getting some more testing done. I want you to have blood cultures and ENT and the Boys from down Under there to take good care of you.
You need to sleep for your body to heal and I know you have crappy sinuses to begin with but you cannot go on like this.
Whatever your taking for antibiotic is not the right choice.
You need fluids, lots of fluids...............and pain medication that will help you. You need back rubs and lots of love. You need all of us to come down and take care of you.
I know how bad you are hurting as your picture was very graphic of how bad your infection is. You are still bautiful even with a swollen face...........
Don't you ever think coming here and talking with us is inappropriate. We are here for you.
What about nebs for you chest, are you wheezing at all?
Know I am here and you are in my prayers and do get back to the Doctor's and insist on treatments to get you better..................
Luvs ya my friend
Kitt aka Dr. Feelgood
Maz how are you doing now I email you but I really hope things are better now
Luv's cowboy up
thankyou ALL for you warmth and kindness and generosity of spirit-
im not 'sick' enough to be hospitalised, and because i am so chronically ill, i have learnt to tough it out. i AM seeing my doc tommorow and if he suggests day care/iv antibiotics, i'll do it. the sinus surgery i had in 2007 has failed and needs to be repeated. it was horrible- im a veteran of surgery at 28, but i have to say the sinus surgery was absolutely painful and disgusting. i lack a functioning immune system, its been faulty since a horror bout of Glandular fever at 14yrs. never recovered. had transfusions to fix anemia, potions, pills, more surgeries, every bug/virus i get. i worked as a nurse for 5yrs and have been exposed to MRSA several times. i will get a nasal swab done tomorrow to rule out MRSA, but i have had it before...
God gives me the necessary strength to work 4 days a week, permanent part-time. during 2006/2007 i worked full time and just 'hid' my illnesses as best i could. in 2008 i was 4 days a week which made a great difference, and i am the same again this yr. Being a high school teacher, i come into contact with a bazillion germs a day, but im not ocd about it- what will be, will be. others have it way worse than i could ever imagine.
but right now- everything sucks!!
everything except for you guys, your support is a healing balm in itself.
Well after much coersion, my body let me fall asleep around mignight, only for me to wake at exactly 4am, choking and gasping for air and a throat full of blood and gunk. i neeeeeeeeeeeeed my sleep.
Oh family, i am tired. I love you all so much,
Corrie, i love carrot cake! and Nikki, at this point in time, it looks like surgery in june, which is beyond frustrating. i am so ill, i should be used to it by now...
sorry for the sob story- love you all,
Thankyou all SO much. summer holidays are quickly coming to an end, so that means back to work, back to taming teens for a living. i just wanted to start the new school year healthy for once, and yet again, im not going too. my students actually make comments like "Miss- you look awful.. are you ok?"
To be fair, they ask out of concern, and even the ultra 'naughty' kids (i teach at a high school for kids with behavioural problems) will offer to help me carry my stuff and be really kind. they scream and swear at their classmates- "shut the 'F' up! cant you see Miss isnt well? keep making noise and i'll punch your 'F'ing lights out!" under their tough exterior, they really are decent kids- its just so hard to break down the wall they build around themselves.
So anyway, i woke again, choking for air, drowning in mucus and feeling like rubbish. but i really appreciate your kind words and thoughts- chronic physical illness is horrible and ive had enough.
Love to all,
Thanks Diane, im having a hard time of it, and some proper, healthy sleep would help, for sure. im just exhausted. have a lovely day, you are such a special person,
I am mad as heck at you for not being in a hospital and getting the care you deserve. Waking up and choking on your own blood and secretions..................no suction available. Unsafe...........I have checked out Quants Airways for a flight but alas the ticket is close to $2,000.00 round trip.........