Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002. Medications: Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.
my precious Kitt, you are being prayed for and i am sending you love and hugs aplenty. love you soooo much,
I am sending my warrior faeries to come and give you some strength..they will be the ones with little cans of extra strong diet coke brandishing little swords
I am putting my arms around you now in a huge but gentle hug, so you can take some deep breaths and know that you are safe and loved. Take some time for you now dear friend and remember to put your superwoman cape in for drycleaning again..phoof!
Love you so,
From reading your response to my post, I was worried something more was going on.
I'm very new to this forum, however; I knew immediately that this is a place of warmth, comfort, and understanding.
I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Thank you all
I am back in the moment and at the moment it is cold, with snow flurries.
I am much better today and am spending the day with my sister. I have my control back and sometimes I just crumble, don't know why....................family demands did it this time.
Thank you so much for your support.
I am worried about you angel Please email me when you get a chance bella.
Megs and all,
I am just kind of stuck right now. I love my sister and I know this is about her. Her surgery date is 2/16 so they were going to head out this morning to go home to North Dakota and return on the12th of February. I talked to her on the phone last night aroung 8:00 PM and she said they would be leaving at 7:00 AM this morning.
I called her on her cell phone this morning (that is all she uses) and it was not turned on so I did not think to much of that. about 10:00 she called and I said how far are you (10 hour drive) and she said we are home..................
I said you mean you have not left yet and she said "No, we came home last night and when I talked to you we were on our way. I did not tell you so you would not worry"
Whoaaaaaaaaaaaa, here is where I get angry as I want the right to decide if I should worry or not and I am not a baby. I am always being called and used when they need me but otherwise back to the on a need to know basis.
Am I over reacting? Yes I know I am but I would not have worried about them, I would have slept fine as they have driven the drive many times over my life time but often right on through Minneapolis without my knowldege as they were headed else where and did not have time to stop.
Oh boy...................I am hurt..............dang this stupid anxiety and depression.
This is what happens when the one sibling is raised seperate from the others, you feel like an outsider all you life.
Yesterday my niece said to me at lunch "You will probably be having house guests when Mom has her surgery as my hubby and daughter will be coming for the surgery"
They did the same thing to me when they got married on August 1st, asked me in front of everyone at the reception if their daughter could stay at our house while they were in Jamaica................I love the little girl and was glad to do it but to just hit me with it in front of an audience felt like I was ambushed. When they got back from Jamica they came to pick up their daughter and asked to all spend the night .
I have a very small house folks and a husband with Crohn's who has to have his meals and personal time on a schedule. We don't have an outhouse either.
OK, I vented. I guess after 6 months of this going on I have a right to vent.
Oh yes and one more thing..........when the check comes after we have ate at restaurant they just let it sit there and don't even look...................one lunch cost me $74.00. I now just lay down my share, usually more then my share, like 1/2 the bill. Now days that is nearly my whole months budget for me as I keep out $100.00 cash for myself for the little things that may come up. I am willing to go to McDonalds but nope, it has to be a nice resaturant as my sister does not want to stand in line. She could sit down and I will stand in line so then I might have money left over to buy that book I saw and have been wanting to get.
Oh dear, I sound so selfish and bitter. Off with my head.
Thanks for reading.
**Thanks be for Ma Bell EHH lol......Love big sis
Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 1/25/2009 9:52:30 AM (GMT-7)
Thanks Big Sis and Nikki,
I am glad you both understand how I feel right now, and I am trying to just let go, but for me that is hard. I will not post anymore dribble about this issue, it is my problem to work through and I do not want to appear like I do not love my sister, I really do.
Bless each of you.
Kitt, we VENT at whim................
You (please) let it all out where we love you so.
If I let out all the years of trusting people only to be used by them at their whim I would expand the bandwidth. LOL.
I am fine and no more to vent about. Life goes on.