Welcome to Healing Well. I found this site when I was recovering from a 60-day anxiety attack that put me in the hospital so out of it I only remember about an hour of a week long stay. So I can sure relate.
I am now on the therapeutic dose of Lamictal, I think 200 mg a day. It has not given me any problems, not sure it's doing any good.
My pdoc is very consistent about not wanting me on Xanax and Ativan, it was Zyprex that finally got rid of the anxiety. And now I only have to take it every 2 or 3 weeks, which is good because it makes me VERY HUNGRY!!!
Your thoughts of doing harm to your husband and yourself are not good. Get ye to a psychiatric doctor as soon as possible.
Know that I got better eventually, and you will too if you seek professional help. Best of luck to you - I know how difficult this time can be. I too wanted to do myself harm.
Thanks to the people who replied. it helps just knowing that there are people out there who have been thru this and understand that just because some of us have emotional problems doesn't make us lunatics. i'll tell you all a little background. i'm 56 years old. my first husband drowned in the bathtub at the age of 40. he was an alcoholic and addicted to meds. my daughter (who was 16 at the time) found her father dead. that really screwed her up. it has also had a lasting effect on me and my other daughter as well. the thing is i had suffered from anxiety and panic attacks from as far back as i can remember. both my daughters (32 & 28) also have anxiety and panic. my oldest daughter has been diagnosed as bipolar and takes 250 mg of lamictal a day. she says it has helped her a lot. i go to a med doc at a mental health institute. she is the one who gave me the questionaire about being bipolar. when she was finished she said that she thought i could be borderline bipolar but not really any more than that. i have been on 10 mgs of paxil a day for about 10 years. she suggested that i up the paxil to 20mgs. a day and stop taking the lamictal. i also am on several other meds for different health problems. i take levothyroxine for my low thyroid, requip for restless leg, hydrochlorothyazide and potassium for meniere's disease (inner ear dysfunction causing dizziness) , repliva for very low iron. i have been in and out of therapy since i was 19 years old. i am now seeing a therapist again at the mental health institute where my med doc is. i have just started working with this new therapist because we moved from NC to AZ about 4 months ago. i am married to a man that i really love but it is difficult for him to work and be able to hold my hand constantly. i am retired and have no friends so i am at home most of the time alone. this is something that i have not been able to get used to. i have always been social and been able to make friends easily. but when i am having high anxiety it is too difficult to take a shower much less leave the house. i absolutely hate this feeling. i don't feel connected to anything or anybody. my biggest fear is that i'll end up in a mental ward and ruin us financially. i went on ling earlier today and ordered an herbal supplement called seredyn. has anyone used this before? if so let me know how it worked for you.
ok. i'm going to go now. if anyone wants to reply to me, i'll be home the rest of the day.
I'd like to extend a warm welcome to you on your first visit to Healing Well! To help you get the most out of the Anxiety and Panic Forum please take the time to browse our threads.
You have already received great advice and I hope you stick with us. You have found a warm and caring group of members that will soon feel like family to you.
Again a warm welcome