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Great advice from Ben.
I would like to sugest that you see a psychiatrist for your anxiety and depression as they know the most about the meds for Anxiety and Depression. There are a couple weight neutral meds out there and I understand exactly how you feel. My stepmother called me fatty all the years I was growing up and to this day I see myself as being overweight as a bad thing, like somehow I have failed and am unworthy.
You are not alone so welcome to the family.