Post Edited (Green Grove) : 1/31/2009 1:36:25 PM (GMT-7)
Post Edited (Green Grove) : 1/29/2009 9:52:31 PM (GMT-7)
Sounds like some of my family members, lol :) I can be falling over and if I didn't keep things going they would be lost. I used to work at a call center for quite awhile and it was hectic. They listen into the calls and some places have key alerts if certain words are spoken, so the guy might have got into trouble for yelling at you. It is a crazy job though, because you have to call people during the hours you know they are probably eating dinner or spending quality time with their families :) I hope you get better!
i spent the day in 40 degree plus temps in my NO air-con classroom (upstairs, where heat rises) and 'taught' insolent, feral, no mannered, foul mouthed teenagers all day, with 2 ruptured eardums, a bad throat and a headache.im done.
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 2/1/2009 8:52:09 AM (GMT-7)
i sound like a jaded old woman, but seriously, kids today have NO idea how good they have it and they just abuse all forms of authority. i was a pain in the rear in high school- i know it, i admit it, always on detention or even the odd suspension, but i would NEVER swear at a teacher, throw FURNITURE at a teacher, let their tyres down and key their car (not me, a colleague) but you get the idea. ive been physically assaulted 3 times in 4 years. it does your head in. but after reading some of the other threads, i feel guilty as hell for complaining, with Frances out of work, Kitt's money being taken, Nikki needing a job. so i should quit moaning and make the best of it. im just SO so so sick at the moment. my principal is awesome and let me go home earlier today (2pm instead of 3.30pm, so that was kind. my classes were over i was just doing the paperwork side of it)
its all a bit much, and then you put the heat in the mix and bam! crazy!
Post Edited By Moderator (stkitt) : 2/1/2009 8:53:38 AM (GMT-7)
My nerves are so bad right now with the pain and February's bills coming in. I am hurting inside and out. . . My darn ribs won't stop and I've been crying so much the past few days. I just want the sun and warmth to come back. . . I've been slipping on my therapy, started smoking again and just want to scream! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I'm feeling so alone right now and I have people all around me. I made an appt. with my doc and am going to consult with him about maybe getting on some pills for depression, but I have tried many of them for years and they don't seem to help. Actually make me feel worse and I'm afraid to go down that path of switching every few months attempting to see what will make me "normal". It does not hit me at all times, but enough lately where I don't know what to do. I'm just lost and being a big baby now in my pity party. . . I'm sorry, but I needed to clear the air with how I am feeling. I love you all and don't know what I would do without the support of such wonderful people and feel stupid for ranting when so many of you are going through worse. . . I definitely give you all kudos, because I'm at my wits end.
Thank you all for being such wonderful friends :)
Sam, we understand, we have all been there and you have every right to get it out of your system and start to try and put the pieces together. I dont think taking AD's is a bad thing. There are times when you simply need them. it doesnt have to be long term- you would need to sort that with your doc of course, but there is no shame in getting help from meds. i know its an uphill battle, and being in physical pain does not help emotional issues either.
dont beat yourself up about smoking and slipping with your therapy- just make a decision to get back into the therapy as soon as you are able, and cut back on the smokes when you are ready. i know you said that AD's have made it worse in the past- maybe your Pdoc could fill you in on newer meds with less side effects?
Anyway, we are all here for you, and you rant all you need too. take care, you're in my prayers,
Maz XX L.A.S
Post Edited (Corrie_1) : 1/30/2009 9:15:15 PM (GMT-7)
Post Edited (Green Grove) : 1/31/2009 1:16:49 PM (GMT-7)
-I havn't posted in a while because I am just to overwhelmed with life at the moment to do so. To begin I made the mistake of getting to close emotionally to a resident at the nursing home I work at and she passed away....I visited her at hospital on the Sunday with the kiddies and she made me promise and swear that I would be back the next day. I didn't go back and she died...I didn't see it coming as she was only 63. I always had a close relationship with her as I understood her, I saw myself in her. She suffered major panic and anxiety. But also had major lung problems caused by smoking and heavy drinking through her life. I some how feel responsible for her death. She begged me to stay that Sunday, but my children were getting out of control and I was starting to have an anxiety attack myself, I had to get them out of there. I thought she was just having another anxiety attack herself. I swore I would be back!!! She was obviously scared! I went to ring her all day to say I wasn't comming but was to gutless to tell her I wouldn't make it as I knew she would be upset...So I guess all she knows is that I lied to her and I keep seeing her waiting for me!
-I have to move back to Townsville in 2 weeks and I have no money as my Xhubby is still holding up the property settlement. I dont know what I'm am going to do.
-Cyclone Elle is due to hit directly on me tomorrow morning with 100km per hour winds and Heavy, heavy rain. I live in Forest Beach a couple of kms from Cardwell and I am already cut off from work and family due to flood waters...I'm pretty scared and all alone. I'm sure the power will be gone shortly with the winds the way they are....I hate silence and silence in the dark is even worse!
-I just wanted to get a bit off my chest without a post all to myself.
-On a positive note...I am still sober!!!
"Define the moment or....the moment will define you!"
Life is short! Break the rules! Forgive quickly! Kiss slowly! Love truly, Laugh uncontrollably . And never regret anything that made you smile
Post Edited (gilly-love) : 2/1/2009 1:43:20 AM (GMT-7)
Good Morning All,
Sam, I really think you need a thread of your own, just for you to share and let us help you. I may have misunderstood this thread as I thought it was just a place to post a rant but not expect to get comments, kind of a place to just let off steam.
A place to post your problems and leave them behind, not to keep the vent running.
Sam we all love you dearly and if your having issues you deserve your own thread as your kind of buried in this thread.
Just my humble opinion. ((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))
I just reread your original post and I see you did mention "receive feedback/support". I will email you re my comments. :)
I thought it was just a place to say what was ticking you off and then leave it there and move on. My mistake. Like I said I will email you.
Sam and all,
I just got news that my husband's niece's fiancee and his brother were in a serious snowmobile accident...........my niece's boyfriend, Brandon is OK but his brother Aaron is in critical condition and was air lifted from scene to trauma center. He can talk and breath but unable to move his arms or legs...................
As I am getting phone calls and speaking to the family I am praying for this young man.
Sam, I promise I will email you tomorrow.........right now, I have to be available for the family.
So I need to sign off for tonight.
Hugs to all
Kitt 6:43 PM CST