Thanks Karen. I've seen "staying in the moment" recommended here a lot lately and it is certainly true and I've put it to use. Wish I would have remembered it those two days.
I just hate how much adrenalin is flowing when this happens and I feel like I'm the only one who deals with things this way.
Yes, I will try to stay in the moment and make it a practice.
It just seems so strange that I'm in my own home and don't feel comfortable and don't even think to excuse myself and go in the bathroom and give myself a lecture!
I've lost confidence in clonazapam, that's for sure.
I do not do well on house guests that come and stay at my home as I have a small home and it is my safe place. 48 hours of not having any private time would send me up the anxiety scale.
You ended up with an old friend that you have not much in comoon with anymore and that is ok as we all grow and change.
Let go of any feelings you may have that you should have done better and remember to stay in the moment. The visit is over, leave it in the past.
I even stay in a hotel when I visit my son in Oregon............I just need my own space and privacy.
Give your self some pats on the back for making it through.