I am so sorry all this has happened to you. No wonder your anxiety is up, mine would be too. I am also sorry that your own father could treat you like that. Can you contact your doctor and get something to help calm you some? I wish I had some wise advice to give you that would help you feel better, but unfortunately I don't. Please come here and talk to us anytime you need, we will always be here for you.
Hugs to you,
I am so sorry and I hope things work out soon for you. I know you are not where you would like to be right now in your life but never give up your hopes and your dreams.