Post Edited (Green Grove) : 2/5/2009 9:31:04 PM (GMT-7)
Thank you so much Karen for your support :) I always love your advice and you are a straight shooter which I really respect :) I know your right and I am overthinking this too much as an anxious person tends to do, lol. I will take your advice and do my meditations tomorrow a few times and the whole thing with the notebook is great as well. . . I used to keep it all the stuff in my head, but I'm getting a wee bit older now and my memory is not as sharp. I think that this will be a great way to be more of my own advocate :)
You are the best!
Hugs from your bro Sam :)
"Define the moment or....the moment will define you!"
Thank you all so much for your support :) I just finished my immediate chores and got all my paperwork together for renewing my license (which I let expire on my bday. . . whooops!:) and my meds and supplements are in grocery bag ready to go. . . Along with my book and CD player, etc. lol. . .
Gilly, here in America they usually just transfer the files over from one place to another, but many of mine have been lost over the years with our strange medical system where I live. Crazy and I wish that we could keep our own files, but it is a hassle to get them because of legal issues. Thank you so much Nanners for your support :) It means so much to me right now when I'm anxious my friend. Paniccu, I live in Missouri and in such a small area that patients just pile up keeping the doctors overworked here. It does take a good chunk of the day but I feel very lucky to have found on in my hometown so I don't have to drive a long ways :) Lil Nikki, we are so much alike that I just laugh sometimes. . . If we were the same age I would swear we were twins, lol. . . I have all my stuff packed for my five minute trip into town, lol :) Don't leave home without my distractions for when I need it :)
You all are the best with all the support, well wishes and great advice :) I feel so much more confident now because of you all and since I'm not so tired now and having some anticipatory anxiety. I am going to go in there smiling and just tell the doc how I feel and that I'm ready for a slow benzo withdrawl when we are sure I'll be fine with it :) I'm already cut back from .5mg 4 times daily to .5mg 3 times daily and feel great! I also hope I can get a mild script of something to help with my pain in my ribs and hip to take every so often when I flare. . . Well I'm going to answer a few more posts and then get on my way :) I'll let you all know how it turned out :)
Love from your bro Sam :)
Sam your right, we only get copies of our medical records not the original records as they belong to the clinic and to the hospitals.
OK so now I am waiting with bated breath...........how did it go for you today? If is 6:00 PM and I am in your time zone so I will be looking for you post.
Awwww :) You are too kind!
I feel the same way about you and others on here as well :) I think everyone has such a glowing personality and sometimes wonder if our anxiety isn't a part of the whole package deal, lol. It is well worth it in my opinion just for the simple thing of helping bring joy to others lives :)
Take care and I will remember to stay positive and believe in my strength. . . Thanks for reminding me cause I need that right now :)
Whooooooo hoooooooooo, that is awesome. I knew you would do well. Remember I weaned off the Ativan switching to Valium and it took me about 9 months however I still have the 2 mg tabs of Valium to use 1-2 per day.
You have done well my friend. I am proud of you.
Thank you Lil Sis :)
I am really happy to have just found a doc that will work with me and how comfortable I feel. I think I threw her for a loop when I made the appt. to get help weaning off of the benzos instead of the other way around :) Hopefully this will prove that I'm being responsible in my records now, cause who knows what that nurse put in them. . . My doctor told me it would be better to cut down anyway because as I grow older I may need more and I won't be immune to the effects as much :) I do feel like you do though and would like to have some around to take as needed. I am slowly working to that point and I think that cutting even .5 mg after having the same dose for around 7 years is a huge step in the right direction :)
Thanks for the compliments. . . I'm proud of you too for taking on all that you are doing now and succeeding as well!
Hugs from your Bro :)