Hey my friend, you are allowed to post your feelings.........that was not a negative post but to me a post asking for help and that is what we are here for.
I know you work very hard at trying to be in the positive and I wish you could get back home sooner as I really feel so strongly that you need to see your own physician.
You are very unhappy away from home and it feels to me this is dumping you over into a deeper place then you want to be.
Usually, paranoid thoughts have been thought of as a symptom of severe mental illnesses however some professionals believe that 40 percent of the general population experience paranoid thoughts. You are not going "crazy" IMHO you need to keep on working with the CBT and seek out your physician ASAP.
Please do me a favor and do not isolate yourself from others for the rest of your stay, even if your feeling down force yourself to be with people, people that make you feel good.
Hugs to youKitt
........My sweet Friend
I am so bloody sorry you are going thru this
YOU are not going crazy hun
IF you were you would NOT know it anyways so they say.......I have the bouts of paranoia and the racing thoughts but for me I am on a med that STOPS all these especially at night so I can sleep and sleep w/o these dang things running thru my head...........
You are never alone here and you are well aare of that my friend
Come and tell us anything you need too .....no judgement at all ......YOU are an asset to ths forum IMHO
........Luvs.......your Canuck Good Luck Charm
Keep us posted plz on how you are doing okay