You never have to appologize for being ill and know we understand. You are truly a member of this wonderful family and I know you are feeling really awful both physically and mentally.
You are human sweetie, you will make it through and I have you in my prayers daily.
I wish I could take some of the illness away but all I can do is offer you my hugs and friendship..........and be here for you.
Hugs and Luv
Thankyou all so much!
i have made an appointment to see my doc and get some sort of pain management plan going, because my whole body is aching from head to toe- sensitive to touch. it hurts my muscles when i lift my arms to wash my hair- i cant do it and i dont have the strength too either. i feel bruised and swollen, and my whole head is ultra congested, sinus is bad and this is the worst fibro flare ive had in months- having glandular fever doesnt help. I have a bronchial infection and my lungs ache and my throat is torn up from all the coughing. i can handle one illness at a time, but when 3 or 4 hit at once, i get overwhelemed. my sleep is fractured and unrefreshing- i keep dragging myself into work and do my best to help my students in any way i can. but im like a zombie, im that tired.
I was scheduled to have a repeat of my sinus surgery in April, but its been pushed back to june. although i have had multiple surgeries, any surgery is dangerous as i dont have a key clotting factor and end up bleeding out on the table and needing transfusions. I also need more surgery on my ovarian cysts, and diathermy on my endometriosis. I have private health insurance, but i stilll have to pay the gap, so i am saving like crazy, which means working like crazy, even though my body hates me.
I feel fragile and sore and sad and overwhelmed- but i KNEW my HW family would understand and i do feel bad that i have not been around as much but every fibre of my being is screaming at me, revolting against me- its like my impaired immune system attacks ITSELF. how dumb is that?
I love and treasure you all- Aries, Kitt, Sam, Junebug- thankyou for understanding and for caring. Im not anxious or panicky at the moment at all, just wiped out emotionally as the physical pain and fatigue and other symptoms take hold. I AM anxious about work & money...but thats another story.
I love you, i really do- my 2nd family,
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Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002. Medications: Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.
Im really struggling.
Thanks for all the support, means the world to me.
I am in strong, physical pain and its doing my head in. I'm not a cryer- but i just want to sob right now. Work is hard, but high school teaching was never going to be the easy option, so i just need to suck it up and hang out for the weekend. My body cant take much more. I ache. I hurt.
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