Post Edited (stkitt) : 2/17/2009 3:55:01 PM (GMT-7)
You take all the time you need, and know we are praying for you and are here to support and encourage you. You are facing a big battle, but yet again you are doing it with strength, dignity and kindness.
We LOVE you,
I do need the hugs, the prayers and the support so I thank each of you. I went back to taking long nap today and I so thought I was out of that mode.
Sam, thank you so much. The songs were perfect and I cried as I love Dolly, her words hit home. ((((((((((HUGS)))))))))
Thank you so much, every word of encouragement helps as I do not have any close friends and this is the only sister I have. Lost my parents and all my aunts and uncles years ago. Lost my friends when I retired.
So thank you so much for your support.
I'll be praying for you and your sister! Sending you happy, calm thoughts and lots of HUGS.
Thank you each of you. It is early Wednesday morning here in MN and I am already in tears..........darn this Anxiety. I have now been asked to come up to the Cancer Lodge and spend the night with my sister tonight and be there to go with them in the morning at 0600 to the hosptial. I am one of the 2 caregivers that can actually sleep at the Lodge in her room with her. Let me rephrase that as I cannot sleep in the hard twin bed that is in the room for the care giver. So I will be the one helping her with her bowel prep and that means I will be up most of the night. I feel so bad for her and yet I pray my crazy head and body can hold up to the stress.
I woke up to snow this morning, just enough to make the roads a mess and life more challenging.
I know I will make it through, I just wish my own children were available to be there with me.
I am taking all of you with me...............so welcome to MN.
I am breaking, I am falling................I just found out that I have to stay at the lodge tonight with my sister, be up by 4:00 AM and help her do her bowel prep and her preop scrub then be at the hospital at 5:30 am..........I don't know when I will get to sleep again and I really need to rest to be able to function and keep the anxiety at bay........I am sitting her crying and praying and wondering how will I get this done.
I have to drive in the rush hour traffic to get to the lodge, none of my own family is available to give me a ride and pick me up when I am ready to come home...........they are all to busy. I have no one..........
I just want to run, what is it all for? I feel so weak and my hands are shaking. My niece is staying with her hubby and daughter tonight so they all get a good night's rest.
Am I being selfish, I feel so selfish and whiney...........what is wrong with me. My sister is fighting for her life.........and I can not pull myself together..........
Please pray, please..........