Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum. I am so gald you found us. I am sorry you are going through so much anxiety and please know you have come to the right place to find kind and caring people that know where your coming from and what your going through.
There is a program, The MoodGym Training Program, that is a free online CBT therapy program. Many of the members have used it and continue to use it. It is very helpful for members of A & P. Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.
Here is the link to the free program, do give it a try as I think you may be surprised how helpful it is for you.
http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcomeJust click on the above link.
Again, a warm welcome.