thank you celey, kitt, and sam...your responses mean alot and i am so glad i can count on HW for support when i need it
i guess everything has finally caught up with me from earlier, as the reality of the situation has set in and i am currently unable to sleep
i keep trying to search for something, anything, that gives a good prognosis for stage 4 lung carcinoma, but so far..no luck.
i'm not really one to dwell on things and think about how bad they will get, so i'm having a weak moment right now but i know it will pass and i will be back to busying myself with taking care of grandmom and supporting mom as well. i just have to remember to take your advice, kitt, and take care of myself also!
thank you all again for your caring and support