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I understand your wanting to get through the A & P without using medication if you can. Have you ever tried CBT?
Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughtscause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.
There is a free online program that you can work from home. I will post the link for you, do give it a try as it has helped many.The MoodGym Training Program
Again a warm welcome