Hello! I just found this board so I thought I'd introduce myself
I'm a 29yr old female, I had my first PA in highschool although I didn't know what it was at the time. Through college I experienced some depression/anxiety, but nothing that I couldn't get a handle on. After college when I got my first job in the medical field I developed a lot of physical symptoms (pre-ulcer, IBS), I was also in a bad relationship... I survied the medical field for 2 years before I wound up in my doctors office, the cardiologist, having lots of tests and procedures done because I could no longer hide or deal with my anxiety. The cardiologist basically told me I was crazy for thinking at 24 I was having a heart attack, he put me on a beta blocker to help me deal with PVCs, my doctor put me on zoloft for the anxiety. It got me through, although it took me a long time to adjust to the zoloft and I never felt quite right, but it was better than waking in a panic at 1am and feeling totally out of control. The medication helped me get my life back, I even changed jobs and dumped my boyfriend, moved in with a friend and managed to get off the zoloft after only 6 months. I have managed my anxiety on and off since, last year I planned my wedding and that helped "distract me" from the panic. This year not so much. My husband is a wonderful man, we have a great life together, a farm, we've traveled, he's helped me reach some of my dreams and goals and we are very well matched. He does not understand my anxiety and why, if I am happy, I feel this way. I am in the process of undergoing lots of tests for pain that I don't understand and the doctor is having a difficult time diagnosing. Last week she prescribed me cymbalta to deal with some of my symptoms while they wait on test results and I only took 1 pill. Medication is one of my triggers and the side effects I experienced from that drug were worse than my worst PA. I am nervous that she will prescribe something else similar, as I don't want to feel that way. I do want to overcome my anxiety and live my life without fear and pain, but I'm unsure how to do it and I'm hoping maybe chatting with some of you will give me some new ideas on how to manage the panic.