shy_diaHello and welcome to HealingWell. I am sorry we have to meet under these circumstances but I am glad you found us.
I agree you are having inappropriate strong reactions to exposing your son to anyone else and for some reason something is triggering the anxiety, panic and angrer within you.
I am glad to hear you are going to see your Doctor as this, as you have recognized, is not normal behavior and also may be affecting your son adversely. If he is exposed to your anger he may think you are mad at him.
You will find the members warm and caring so please read through the threads and again a warm welcome.