Gail its like you read my mind! i just got up and had some benadryl- i too have a high tolerance for pain meds but somehow the benadryl does help me sleep, i just hate the taste! yep my anxiety is far worse when i am running on minimal sleep-
Love you bunches, i just emailed you,
Good Morning Maz-a- roo,
If I cannot sleep I am one anxious and crazed woman. Like Nanners I have a high tolerance for meds which of course some Docs think means I am could become addicted............ssssssshhhhhhh. At my age would that be so bad......kidding.
I had trouble and was on Ativan which my Pdoc took me off of because I might become addicted. So we went to some of the non-narcotic sleeping meds, no luck. Finally she gave me Trazadone and I do well at 100mg every night. I can take 150 mg but 100mg does the job. First night it did not and I thought great.........second night it kicked in and I use it faithfully.
Benadryl, I would not get the sleepy feeling, just doesn't work for me.
I am sorry you are having problems. HOpe your soon sleeping like a baby.
morning Karen & Kitt! you guys rock. ive been up for 3hrs now and the sun is rising and im going to try and sleep. the fibro pain is just unbearable at the moment,
love to all,
Maz XX zzzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzzzz
Maz, Maz, Maz... Geez... too bad the two of us couldn't get together in the middle of the night for a good cup of camomille tea and a good chat... I am up and down like a yo-yo every night. I don't remember the last time I slept through the night... in fact lately... my RLS is sooo bad that I am up pacing much of the night... can't catch my breath. 2 a.m seems to be the witching hour for me. I'm convinced it has something to do with my childhood, when I lay awake at night waiting for my violent/ intoxicated dad to come home.... then all hell would break loose. I think my "alarm" clock is still waking me at that hour every night thinking I need to be on the alert in case.....
In any case... not sleeping is THE WORST ! I soooo envy people that drop off the moment they hit the pillow and sleep right through the night... the house could be on fire and they wouldn't wake up.... What a GIFT that is! I hope people who are able to sleep realize how darn lucky they are.!
Meantime.... we insomniacs continue with our nightly vigils.... It sucks... Yawn!
HOpe you are feeling better soon sweetie...
Love and prayers always
Part of the problem with my sleep, is as i mentioned, the pain from my fibro which is in an acute flare at the moment, but i also coughed all night, i have a chest infection with bronchial spasming and i sounded like a seal that barks at people. My mouth is full of ulcers and the corners of my mouth are cracking which is always an indicator for me that im fighting off a huge virus.
I just cant get comfortable. so im miserable.
But love you all lots,
Hello mazfire: I am sorry to hear how sick you have been feeling and not having been able to sleep. I know even under normal circumstances lack to sleep can make you feel so irritable, depressed and stressed.
I am usually in the depression forum so I do not know of your prior posts and history with your principal. I also live in the U.S. so I'm not aware of your laws and how they may be different. But could you get a lawyer to protect yourself as you have been absent because of valid medical reasons? Or even here in the U.S. there is an American Disabilities Act, that I have been protected under while in Graduate School that made it mandatory for them to provide me with accommodations once my condition was verified by a doctor. Do you have anything similar there?
I hope you start feeling better soon and my thoughts will be with you.
Anxiety 2007; IBS 2004; Chronic Hives 2002. Medications: Allegra, Zantac, Xanax, Darvocet.
Hi Maz, I hope you're feeling better soon and are able to get some sleep! I'm sending prayers your way.
Good Morning Maz,
I hope you are feeling better today as I hate to hear of you being in so much pain and not being able to sleep is one of the toughest things to deal with.
Being alone in the dark and wide awake has always kicked my anxiety up so I know what your feeling my dear friend.
I am praying for you to get some rest and some peace. Use your pain medication as you need to. Try to stay ahead of the pain. Don't wait until your hurting so bad that it takes the medication longer to take away the pain.
Hugs to you my Maz.
My principal had a go at me today- regardless of the fact i have kept to his 'ultimatum' and had basically NO time off. I decided to assert myself and stand up for myself, which he did not appreciate, how ever i pointed out what he is doing is dishonest and unfair. I got the news this afternoon that the job is MINE! my head of faculty went into bat for me and told him im a valued member of the staff and the school community and that this is not ok.
He made me cry today- he accused me of being lazy, unreliable, poor work ethic etc. That is so far from me. He said i was out of line in asking him to make a decision regarding my future employment. I didnt cry infront of him, i wouldnt give him that satisfaction. It was so mean, because he KNOWS ive moved hell and high water to do my job well. Ive gone above and beyond my job description in order to help my students and colleagues, but this has always gone unnoticed. He ended up back peddling when i suggested taking my recent treatment to the union. I am hurt by this recent change in attitude, as i have only had 3 days off in 9 weeks- and when you see my list of diagnosis in my signature, you will understand that only 3 sick days in 9 weeks is nothing short of miraculous.
I have 3 weeks until the holidays- easter break. I will be going to hospital for IV antibiotics & anti-inflammatories and organising a new, better pain management plan.
I love you guys- you help ease the burden and make it easier to face the day when i know i have your total support & understanding.
Love and blessings to you all,
Post Edited (Mazfire) : 3/23/2009 4:55:58 AM (GMT-6)
Good for you for standing up to the bully and for landing the job. They are lucky to have someone that will work with the children you work with on a daily basis under some very trying circumstances. No one has the right to bully or harass in the work place and coming from your immediate supervisor is outright hostile environment.
I am so happy for you that you got the job.
I hope the next few weeks go by quickly so you can get the medical attention you need and know we are praying for you.
Post Edited (Howlyncat) : 3/23/2009 5:24:56 PM (GMT-6)
Thanks guys- sadly its a case of 'the mind is willing, but the body is weak". yes i am so relieved to have regular, dependable work but at the same time, my health is still taking a beating. My fibro is so bad in my right knee and ankle, its hard to get around and as per ususal, sinuses rotting away with bronchial infection. on antiobiotics the size of horse suppositories and they DONT work for me!
I have 2 weeks left this term- the holidays CANNOT come soon enough. my pain is particularly bad, im not rested at all, sleep is a mess and constant fever & raised white cells say virus. I got my last batch of test reults back and i have glandular fever (i think you call it mono?) again. it never really goes away.
Im happy and sad at the same time, if that makes sense. by God's grace alone am i getting out of bed at all. And you guys help bunches!