Post Edited (Rozen) : 3/26/2009 10:20:04 PM (GMT-6)
Welcome to HealingWell Rozen, I have found the support, validation and encouragement that I receive here, to be so helpful and healing. I hope and trust that will be your experience as a member of the HW family.
IMHO you appear to have Health Anxiety and I am wondering if you have every been to therapy? There is a great online free site for CBT.
Cognitive-behavioral therapy is based on the idea that our thoughts cause our feelings and behaviors, not external things, like people, situations, and events. The benefit of this fact is that we can change the way we think to feel / act better even if the situation does not change.
The MoodGym Training Program Link: http://moodgym.anu.edu.au/welcome
Another site that you may find helpful is ecouch:
Both of these sites provide free online selfhelp programs.
They are from the same source. Please do take a look. I am working through the CBT right now.