let me start by saying welcome to the forum! you will meet lots of wonderful, caring people here that have great stories and advice to share, so plz come back often!
I am so sorry for the loss of your mother. I recently lost my grandmother in early March as well, and I can completely relate to your anxiety surrounding that issue. I have noticed for well over a month that my anxiety just does not seem to go away at all. I can think of maybe 2 days since she passed that I haven't had bouts of it every single day. Most days I think I'm going to die and that sends me into a panic, and really makes daily functioning difficult. I do hope that your doctor is able to give you something to help ease your anxiety through this period and I hope you start feeling better soon!
Some of the other members here always recommend breathing exercises and muscle relaxation during times of high stress/A&P and it really does work! Maybe your doc can give you some suggestions as well to help stay in the moment and ease some of the unpleasant symptoms.
Again, welcome to the board
Hope you are doing ok, and I too would like to extend my sincere sympathy at the death of your Mother.
Take care and let us hear from you.
I can totally relate to what you are going through as I went through something similar 2 years ago when my step daughter whose 23 got diagnosed with cancer.
I developed stomach issues @ the same time and was convinced I was going to die. After suffering severe anxiety/depression, etc I am finally for the most part over it. Yes...I still have times where I worry (the what ifs) but for the most part I can function. I still have stomach issues and have been checked over extensively with nothing found.
Anyway, one of the best things for me was CBT. It really helped get through a horrible period in my life. Right now my sister is going through cancer and I am her main caregiver. Altho it has been hard for my health anxiety I have tried very hard to keep it in check with the CBT and keeping my thoughts in check and taking life more day by day.
Hope this helps and take care of yourself.
My condolences to you on the loss of your mother.
I must also apologize for not sending condolences in my first reply. I saw your Health Anxiety concerns and focused my reply solely to that because of what I am going through with my HA.
Glad to hear you are doing better and that test results are looking good.
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DX: Anxiety, Depression, LPR (acid reflux)
Meds: Paxil, Nexium, Zantac