panic is attacking me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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alwayslove
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   Posted 4/18/2009 7:48 AM (GMT -7)   
i had a panic attack 3 days ago and since then i've had the whole general anxiety thing.... last night i felt one starting and i talked myself out of it and i took deep breaths and a clonaz and it didnt end up happening....
 
today i woke up again with the general anxiety...
 
okay so what im wondering is if you stop yourself from having a panic attack, is it something that's just going to build up and happen no matter what??? this might sound stupid but i feel like i've saved up a bunch of panic in my head and it's going to eventually explode ....
 
the only thing i can compare it to is throwing up....you can fight it and fight but eventually you're going to throw up and there's nothing you can do about it so you might as well get it over with
 
 
is this how it works?? or should i continue to try and stop them when i feel one coming on?
 
also im wondering about the clonazepam..does it just supress the anxiety??am i going to suddenly get a HUGE wave of panic because i've been tryign to fight it off for so long?
 
am i going to wake up every morning with this anxious feeling? or will i ever go away?
 
i feel like i can't live like this it needs to change!
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   Posted 4/18/2009 8:33 AM (GMT -7)   
No by fighting you are not building yourself up to a panic attack. The clonazepam helps to stop the anxiety. Have you spoken to your doctor about maybe getting on a longer term med. Sounds like you really would benefit from a daily type medication to keep the panic/anxiety at bay. Also, have you checked our resources thread and read about CBT? I think you would really benefit from it, give it a try, it can't hurt. Good luck!
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alwayslove
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   Posted 4/18/2009 10:28 AM (GMT -7)   
thank you nanners...
i do have a book on CBT that i've been reading and working through. I'm wondering though.... i know anxiety disorders aren't something you can cure, but do people live in this state of anxiousness forever? every day? every night? is it a horrific rollercoaster all your life?? or is it just something that comes and goes and you roll with the punches??

i had no idea about any of these panic/anxiety disorders before ..and i think you people that have them are really really strong. i don't think im very strong im being a huuuge baby about it.
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when you feel like you're done, and the darkness has won, babe you're not lost ...when you're worlds crashing down and you cannot bare the cross, baby you're not lost.


percycat
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   Posted 4/18/2009 3:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi, alwayslove, I think all of us feel like babies when our anxiety is beating up on us. I do, and then I just want to hide or sleep until it goes away.

I think the anti-anxiety meds do actually change the physical mechanisms in our bodies and prevent some anxiety and panic. So it's not like a sudden dam that's built across a river and the river will just keep pounding until the dam breaks. The meds really do slow the process all the way yp the line.

I am just starting to take ativan regularly and so will be learning about the meds right along with you.

Hang in there, and remember that you're not alone. We're here with you.

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stkitt
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   Posted 4/18/2009 4:17 PM (GMT -7)   
 
I don't believe your panic attacks build up when you can stop one in it's tracks.  It is much better to stop an attack before it becomes full blown then to try to recover from an attack when you are in the middle of one.
 
One of the longer acting benzos is Valium and you could be on a regular schedule if you physician approves it at least until you work through the CBT and learn alternative ways to deal with these attacks.
 
I understand how dreadful these attacks can be but remember you have anxiety, It does not have you.
 
Take care and keep on talking to us.
 
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alwayslove
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   Posted 4/18/2009 6:57 PM (GMT -7)   
thank you so much kit and percy,

I don't know if you read my thread before about my surgery but I'm kind of hoping that this is something that will pass once im fully recovered from that. it's been 8 weeks which is around the time im supposed to be back up to speed so im praying that once i dont have a headache anymore i'll stop having these anxiety attacks.

recently my biggest fear is that im going to lose myself... like that i wont have my personality anymore or i'll never be able to live life like i used to..... when i asked my psychologist if you can ever be cured of this she compared it to having sprained an ankle....once you sprain your ankle it will definitely get better - it's not going to be sprained forever, but it will sprain more easily in the future. I can live with that. does anyone feel like they aren't themselves anymore after this???? I want to be myself.
sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
<3 <3 <3
when you feel like you're done, and the darkness has won, babe you're not lost ...when you're worlds crashing down and you cannot bare the cross, baby you're not lost.


oldsoul84
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   Posted 4/18/2009 10:10 PM (GMT -7)   
in my experiance, and ive been trying to solve this whole anxiety thing for years now, and i have progressed alot and always learned how i overcame each and every symptom.. in your face anxiety :) and this is what ive found... depending on what the anxiety is about it may come out and it may not. If it is just irrational and panic over things that are little and silly and u prevent it its perfactly fine and its good to keep practising what your doing, but if the anxiety is over something that is an actual issue for you it is still good to prevent it but you have to get to the issues and come to face your fears and deal with it. And i dont even think panic is about fighting it, sometimes its about staying strong through surrendering. Sometimes it is not a battle bewteen anxiety and our sanity, but learning to feel the panic and allowing it to arise and breathing through it, feeling the fear and knowing you will be fine is great in lessening panic, like i said staying strong through surrendering, because letting go breaks us free, whilst controlling and fighting keeps us trapped.
All the best.

bobp
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   Posted 5/2/2009 2:56 PM (GMT -7)   
Alwayslove---I saw your post of a week ago mentioning the fear of "loss of self". I think this is a common problem with anxiety and is not unusual. Most likely this feeling comes from the amount of inward looking that people do when anxiety is high. I can assure you that "you" will not disappear. You could not even if you wanted to. Here is one idea. When time time is right, challenge your anxiety a little. Go ahead and tell your anxiety to have at you, go ahead and do your worst to me. At first it might rev up, but if you hang in there, you will find that anxiety is a liar and there is not much there. Bobp

vokal612
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   Posted 5/3/2009 12:52 PM (GMT -7)   
bobp said...
When time time is right, challenge your anxiety a little. Go ahead and tell your anxiety to have at you, go ahead and do your worst to me. At first it might rev up, but if you hang in there, you will find that anxiety is a liar and there is not much there. Bobp


Great advice, I've read that before. If that is something that you can master, you can beat anxiety in its tracks. I have yet to master that skill :(
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