Co-Moderator, Anxiety and Panic Forum
DX: Anxiety, Depression, LPR (acid reflux)
Meds: Paxil, Nexium, Zantac
As someone who has been unwell, in and out of hospital, multiple surgeries etc, i ended up with an addiction to prescription painkillers, downers, sleeping pills, you name it, i took it. i have battled this addiction for years and dont think in all my time here at HW that i have mentioned this fully as i felt it was weak of me to let myself become emotionally and physically dependant on prescription painkillers, and i always justified it by saying "well the doc prescibed it for me, it must be ok." i doctor shopped and got a big variety of opiates and benzos and was taking them way too eaily and way too often and in the end Paulos, it made life SO much worse.
This is an issue i still struggle with, although i have regained control, but i would come clean with the doctor and get to the root of why you are really self medicating. for me, it was to numb the pain of reality. like Gail said, my painkillers often caused rebound pain, and so i would take more and more- vicious cycle. take it from me that getting help is NEVER TOO LATE.
all the best and dont beat yourself up about it-
I am so sorry you are struggling so........... I know how easily you can come to depend on the Vicodin and it does give you a buzz so that is why many people like it. I had to stop taking it for that very reason too.
As Maz said many of us have been where you are and have gotten past it but we just don't like to talk about it. I am glad you brought it out into the open as I have been told by my Pdoc that I have addictive tendencies. At first I did as Maz and said to myself, "how dare she judge me" but in reality I know that I do and I try to remain alert to my tendencies.
Gentle Hugs to you