Welcome to HealingWell and the A & P Forum. I am glad you found us and thank you for sharing your story with us.
I am sure you will find the support you need right here as the majority of our members experience the very same feelings as you do and they will be along to give you wise advice and kind and generous support.
Again a warm welcome and do read through the threads in the forum, there is much information.
Boy can I identify! My dad fell into a coma a week after I had gotten married and we took him off of life support shortly after. The following year my aunt, cousin, uncle and mom died within three 3 of each other 3 of them from heart attack or heart failure. Several months later I had an axperience that sent me to er thinking I was having a heart attack (I was only 31) They did the usual stuff ekg, wore heart monitor for awhile the works! No one ever mentioned that I may be having panic attacks. Thankfully I stumbled onto this site! The support was great and after no longer wanting to suffer through they terror I went to a counselor and they put me on meds. I stopped the meds less then a year later and had been fine since until last year. After being pretty panic free for 7 yrs they started again and fierce. I thought I was dying. At least this time I knew what they were and what to do. After the stress of selling my home, moving out of state and starting a new job I settled down again. That was until my brother died last month. It triggered again and again I ended up in er thinking I was a goner. So here I am again.
For me I realize they are triggered by lose. I do not take it well and realized also I need to acknowledge and take care of the chilld within. For me it triggers me back to an abandoned child. I have been trying to go through it without meds. I do natural medicine and for me I am more comfortable without them. In saying that I do take something when I realized Iit has gone too far for me to stop. My head immediately thinks I am having heart attack. I have been trying to change my thinking when they happen. I encourage you to seek help and use meds and coming here and using the chat rooms has been a life saver. It doesnt even matter what room just start talking! People have helped me through them on many occasions. Good luck and hope to see you in chat.