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Jibjab
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Date Joined May 2009
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   Posted 5/16/2009 7:05 AM (GMT -7)   
Hello All,
 
I am new to the site and was hoping for support and advice.   I am 31yo with 2 sons (age 2 and 5) and a wonderful husband.
 
I have been plagued by worry as long as I can remember. It wasn't until after the birth of my 2nd son, that  I began having panic attacks.  2 years ago I went to the ER thinking I was having a stroke.  I felt lightheaded and feeling like I was drunk.  Left side of face was slightly numb as well as my left hand.  MRI was normal and neurologist said I passed all tests.  She did tell me that MS can appear after the birth of a child and wanted to admit me to the hospital for observation.  I declined.  I spent the next 2 days worrying that I had MS.  I saw my GP who held my hand and talked me through my worry.  She said MS would have most likely appeared on the MRI scan of my brain and what I experienced was most likely a panic attack. This helped me and my life returned to normal.  She has since left her practice and moved to a different state sad
 
Then, 6 weeks ago I had back surgery which was very unexpected.  Ever since I woke up from surgery  every twtich my body makes sends me into panic that something is wrong.  My muscles twitch throughout the day and when my body is relaxing or sleeping, It will jurk.  I am often checking symptoms online and was convinced the body jerking and twitches was ALS. I have spent most of my days and nights feeling like I was about to die or be diagnosed with something horrible.  2 weeks ago I decided to see a therapist for this. 
 
I have been on Zoloft twice before for anxiety with great success but went off of it over a year ago.  At the recommendation of my therapist, I went back on it 3 nights ago at 50mg.  The first night I had trouble sleeping and was restless.  The next night, I woke up completely out of control.  I was pacing the floor, wringing my hands, VERY agitated, lightheaded, nauseas, and my heart was pounding.  I thought I was having another panic attack.  I checked the drug online and saw the symptoms of seratonin syndrome which sounded identical to what I was experiencing.  It said it could be fatal and I again, panicked thinking I had OD'd.  I called 3 physicians, a pharmacist and my therapist.  I was told that this is normal when starting the drug, but i had been on this twice before and nothing like this happened. I spent most of the day yesterday pacing the house or office and felt like I had taken speed.  This lasted almost 15 hours.  So, last night I stopped taking it.   
 
 It is affecting my job performance becaue I cannot concentrate and more importantly, my relationship with my husband.  He doesn't understand what I am feeling and thinks this is something I should just "stop doing" (like I have any control over it).  I try to explain to him that most moments of panic feel likethe  feeling you get when you hear the phone ring in the middle of the night.  I don't know if stopping the zoloft was a good idea but now I am scared to take it (or anything else) because of the reaction I had.
 
I am hoping that there is light at the end of the tunnel.
Any feedback would be great.
 

Nanners
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   Posted 5/16/2009 8:47 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Jibjab and welcome to Healingwell. I know my daughter took Zoloft for awhile and she said it made her feel very amped up, so sounds like the samething happened to you. I would talk to your therapist and ask about maybe trying a different medication.

Also, I would suggest you avoid looking things up on the internet, it will just cause you more health anxiety. Good luck and welcome:)

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daftone
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   Posted 5/16/2009 10:09 AM (GMT -7)   
See if your therapist uses cbt or can refer you to someone who does. It is excellent for teaching you how to stop worrying and I would not have even thought of going without meds before I learned the new coping skills cbt taught me. I am med free now but it took a few months of cbt to get here.

Grizzly pooh
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Date Joined May 2009
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   Posted 5/16/2009 5:38 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi, I'm new here too and we sound similar except I have 2 girls who are 12 and 15. This is my 3rd big bout of anxiety/depression and I just started Cymbalta yesterday. I'm also feeling a bit nauseous but anxious and can't settle to anything. you're lucky if you can work at all, there's no way I could so I've taken a few weeks off. My husband doesn't get it either so I just keep asking him to remind me it will be ok. For most of my life I'm ok and functioning but when I get into this zone I forget all that and can't see my way forward at all. I think I'm ruining my family's life by being like this, and I'll just keep getting like this again and again.
At least being here we know that while it feels very lonely in our own heads, others are out there doing this too. As if we would have this if we chose to. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. The physical symptoms don't give me a chance to get my head sorted out at all, thats why I decided to take medication. i hope they help but I had a bad reaction to efexor so I'm not too hopeful at this early stage.
Hang in there and keep talking on here xx

Allestaria
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   Posted 5/16/2009 5:55 PM (GMT -7)   
I would talk to your therapist and see about trying a smaller dose and work your way to a comfortable level. 50mg might just be to much for you right now and maybe 25mg is better.
I always take 1/4 to 1/2 of a new pill and work my way up. I always have some sort of side effect and I would rather deal with it on a smaller level then in full force.

Now with that. Our bodies change a LOT after having kids. My anxiety/Panic attacks and depression kicked in full force after the birth of my last child.
My first attempt at meds was with Paxil. 1/4 tablet once a day. Within a week I showed signs of shaking and doc put me on Celxia I did great on 1/4 pill then 1/2 after a month. Except at 1/2 I had horrible cravings for sweets and in the 3 total months on that pill I gained a huge amount of weight and was pulled off of it.
Buspar was my next option. 1/4 pill twice daily for 3 weeks then 1/2 pill twice daily. Again face tremors and was pulled off of it.
Next option new doctor wellburtin. Made me sick to no end. So pulled off of that one after a week and tried Cymbalta. Suicidal thoughts and was pulled off of that one. Now I have lexapro and to chicken to try it. After that history of meds I am not sure I can try another.

But if you can handle trying another med go for it. But ask if it is ok to work your way up instead of trying the max dose. With those meds listed above no telling how my reaction would of been if I had tried a full dose off the bat. Take them at night. That way you sleep through any nausea or light headedness etc.

stkitt
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   Posted 5/17/2009 7:00 AM (GMT -7)   
 
Hello and welcome to HealingWell.  I am so happy you found us.
 
You have already met some of our wonderful members and received great advice................I hope that we will be able to meet your needs so keep on talking to us.
 
We do care about all of our members.
 
Gentle Hugs to you,
Kitt
 
 
 

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Junebug05
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   Posted 5/17/2009 7:41 AM (GMT -7)   
Jibjab,
 
Welcome to HW!  I agree with the advice already given you.  Using CBT has been a miracle for me in my worst times, it's definitely worth the time to learn how to use it.  I also know that like Allestaria said, that it can take a while to find the medication that will work best for you without alot of side effects.  It may be worth a call to your doctor to get something else to try.  Keep posting here as the support from these wonderful people cannot be beat and it does help just to talk to others who know what you are going through. 

Jibjab
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Date Joined May 2009
Total Posts : 17
   Posted 5/17/2009 5:24 PM (GMT -7)   
Thank you,everyone, for the warm welcome and fantastic advice. It is great to know that I have a place to turn for support from a group who truly understands what I am going through. I have decided to not continue on with the medication (zoloft) until my drs appt in September. I am currently STUCK without a dr. I had to have my OB/GYN refill my zoloft prescrtiption and said she would only do it this one time and only for 2 refills.

After my GP left her practice, I saw the other dr that was in her office. He was a JERK!!! So, I scheduled an appointment with Dr who is my mom and dad's dr. He is not accepting new patients but aggreed to take me on since my parents dr. The only problem is he won't see me regularly until I have a physical with him and the earliest I could get a physica was Mid September. Now, the jerk dr knows I have a reinstatement appt with another dr. and won't see me in the interim. This became a problem when I called to have my expired zoloft prescription refilled (from my first GP). He wouldn't do it. So, I had to jump through hoops until my OB/GYN did a favor and gave me a 3 month prescription until I could see the DR in Sept. Then, when I had the reaction I called Jerk Dr since technically I had seen him once and I was still a patient and he wouldn't answer my questions. I ended up calling the Sept dr (who wouldn't answer either since he had never seen me) and I called the OB/GYN nurse to finally find out I probably wansn't dying. So, hope all goes well until September.

Again, THANKS TO ALL who responded. I greatly appreciate it.

Jacki

daftone
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   Posted 5/26/2009 9:48 PM (GMT -7)   
You're welcome turn

stkitt
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   Posted 5/27/2009 7:35 AM (GMT -7)   

Jacki,

I am glad you received such great response to your thread and please do keep us posted on how you are doing.  September is a long time to wait to see a physician.

Perhaps you could come up with a fall back plan should you need help sooner.  :)

Gentle Hugs

Kitt


 

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daftone
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   Posted 6/1/2009 11:39 AM (GMT -7)   
I agree Sept is a long ways away. Try reading up on cbt and doing the exercises like the tea forms thought countering one, they will help.
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