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dixibella
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   Posted 5/18/2009 2:35 AM (GMT -7)   
So I've been avoiding dealing with my anxiety over the last couple of weeks. Since my trip I've been a bit of a mess but trying really hard to keep it together. I finally got back in to see my OMT doc after a month where he was booked and I couldn't get an appt and my body was a complete mess, still is, but he did a bunch of work to try to help me. I've had horrible headaches, leg cramps, abdominal pain, shoulder pain, chest pain radiating down my left side, my neck has been sore and stiff, I just feel like after everything I've tried I just don't feel any better. I have started to do some walking with my husband to try to help me get a little healthier and to try to take my mind off things but I finally broke down yesterday. My husband and I were in a store and it was so cramped and tiny and all these yucky food smells and people shoved in that I freaked out and ran out to the car and called him from my cell. I was crying and just told him I wanted to go home. I just feel like giving up, I'm so tired of feeling broken and in pain all the time. I don't know why my body constantly hurts but its exhausting and it just scares the heck out of me and makes me wonder what is going on. I know I've been checked out and am getting the OMT to try to help my back and shoulder and now my knee feel better but I just don't understand why I don't feel better, at least a little bit. Seems like he adjusts one thing and another pops right up. Sorry i'm just feeling frustrated with being 29 and feeling like my body is 80. Its really getting me down.

vestabula
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   Posted 5/18/2009 4:10 AM (GMT -7)   

Hi...You might have your doctor check you out for Fibromyalgia.  Many of us with anxiety and panic have this disorder.  It's trademark is chronic pain that varies from day to day, and fatigue.  Fibro is painful but not life threatening and can be managed.  Your symtpoms sound like mine and I have it, but I'm no doctor so it would be good to just ask if this is a possibility.

Donna


fibro, menieres disease, RLS, anxiety disorder, disc compression, scoliosis, spinal stenosis TMJ  Meds: Lexapro and valium


dixibella
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   Posted 5/18/2009 4:35 AM (GMT -7)   
Hi Donna,
Thanks for the response. My doctor did a block 3 panel and some followup testing and besides an iron issue which retesting showed was nothing, everything came out fine. Not that I want fibro because it is a terrible disease but something to explain why I feel so cruddy all the time would be helpful just in the sense of health anxiety. Not that I want to be sick, but its hard to think that all of this is in my head.

vestabula
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   Posted 5/18/2009 5:05 AM (GMT -7)   

That's the problem with Fibro...all of our blood work, scans etc come back normal. I cannot tell you how many tests I had before dx'd.  If you can find a Rhuemy that 'believes' fibro is real, you might want to make an appointment and see what he/she has to say.  At least you would have an answer which is half the battle.  I heard 'it was all in my head' for five years.

Good luck to you and hugs...

Donna


fibro, menieres disease, RLS, anxiety disorder, disc compression, scoliosis, spinal stenosis TMJ  Meds: Lexapro and valium


stkitt
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   Posted 5/18/2009 5:36 AM (GMT -7)   

Dear Dixi,

I am so sorry  you are feeling so dang lousy and I do understand the fleeing from the store in panic as you just want to go back home.  I went through this very same thing and I sat home holed up in my safe place for a long time.  I would not even attend family functions such as a wedding as I had so much anxiety.  I was sure I was doomed and nothing would ever get better.

It was my lowest moment of Anxiety and Depression and I will always remember how bad it felt so I understand how you feel.  Please do not give up and do continue to advocate for yourself. 

I too have heard of people with Fibro that were dx by sx only as the testings were all within normal  range.

I know many people that have had great success with Lyrica for the pain of Fibro but remember I am not a professional and I am just tossing out ideas.

Please know you are cared for here and that you have our support and prayers.

Gentle Hugs to you my friend,

Kitt


 

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dixibella
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   Posted 5/18/2009 6:06 AM (GMT -7)   
Oh wow, my doctor made me think that because all my rheumatology bloodwork came out Ok that there was no way I could have fibro. Hmmm... maybe I can get her to refer me to an actual rheumatologist. Gosh that is good to know. Again, not that I want to be sick but I have a tough time grasping how anxiety can cause me to have all these weird muscle issues. I know it could be tension and certainly that is to blame for part of it.
I am pretty good about knowing my limits on what I can handle, it just came on me really suddenly and my chest was hurting and I felt like I needed to escape and get back home where I was comfortable. My husband really doesn't understand I have yet to find a good way to explain it to him. I just got in touch with my works employee assistance program to see about getting a couple of counseling sessions, I've been putting it off, I don't know why... I just keep thinking "If I can get X sorted out (stress, body pains, feeling exhausted) then I can handle it" but as much as I've been to OMT and getting naps in the afternoons when I'm really tired, I'm not handling it very well I guess.
Thanks to you both ladies, I really didn't know Fibro was that hard to Dx and that despite bloodwork I may still have a reason for my aches.

stkitt
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   Posted 5/18/2009 6:11 AM (GMT -7)   

Dixi,

I am proud of you for tapping into the EAP as this type of program is underused IMHO.   You have this as a benefit and so you are entitiled to use it so do get a couple of sessions out of it. This  will help you by giving you the opportunity to talk one on one with someone and you usually can get an appointment quickly using this benefit.

Hang in there sweetie and know we are right here.
 
(((((((((Dixi)))))))))))))

Kitt


Aries8
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   Posted 5/18/2009 2:55 PM (GMT -7)   
Dixi, when you mentioned the smell of food making you feel sick, I thought of pregnancy. Is there any way you could be pregnant? Pregnancy wouldn't cause all those symptoms, but anxiety sure can.

Grab some books on anxiety. The books by Dr. Claire Weeks explains the symptoms of anxiety and why they happen. It helps tremendously when you're scared. Hang in there, Dixi!!!
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dixibella
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   Posted 5/19/2009 2:46 AM (GMT -7)   
Oye I hope its not pregnancy! Eek! I think the space was just pretty confined, its kinda a yucky little store and you know how when you panic everything hits you at once? People, small space, food frying smells, ick, just too much going on. Plus we had been visiting people all day and sometimes I just need a lot of quiet and god love my husband but he does not understand that at all. He'd have company 24/7 if I let him I think.
I'm just frustrated with my body, at 29 I feel like I shouldn't constantly be in pain, my legs have bothered me so much lately and I want to be more active but when they ache so badly I start freaking out thinking I'm going to get blood clots. Which I had never really worried about too much until this PA I saw for my riding accident took me out of work for a month because he was worried my stepped on leg was going to get blood clots - talk about freak me out! On top of a huge crushed up black and blue leg, I was constantly worried if I was on my feet too much I was going to tip over from a clot. I think I had 4 U/S on my veins in a 6 month period. I was hoping OMT would help but even when I was seeing him every week my legs still ache and cramp, its just so weird. I sometimes wonder if riding is causing some of the problem but I'm not quite ready to go there.

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   Posted 5/19/2009 5:27 AM (GMT -7)   

Dixi

 i am 29 also and have felt trapped in the body of an unhealthy senior citizen for years. The combo of Fibro, CFS, Anemia, Arthritis, TMJ, Polycystic Ovaries & chronic ear/nose/throat/chest infections are enough to make me want to scream! i feel ive been dealt a short hand as i have missed so much fun stuff due to being constantly unwell since the age of 14. Ive recently had 2 hospital stays for pneumonia and am not improving.

I know this isnt helpful, im not giving you tips cos honestly i dont know the answer (if you find out, let me know!) but i wanted you to know that you are NOT alone in how you feel. I totally sympathise.

Here is to us getting better and loving our lives- not just living them.

Maz XX


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dixibella
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   Posted 5/19/2009 4:46 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi Maz,
Yeah it stinks to feel so old! Seriously I married a man who is 20 yrs older and he has more energy and liveliness than I feel like I ever will. I know that's not true but it stinks to be trapped inside a body that just won't freakin cooperate! I agree about missing out and I feel like I'm held back by feeling miserable and in pain all the time, but I haven't yet figured out what the heck is going on besides the anxiety and a couple of accidents which I have accepted that I have healed as much as possible with my left leg and will just have to live with some of the pain. However I just feel so old! I am dreading 30 because I can't imagine feeling much junkier than I do right now, its like my body is worn out way before its time. Thanks for the sympathy and support!
~Dixi

vestabula
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   Posted 5/19/2009 6:39 PM (GMT -7)   

Hey Dixie...I'm not trying to foist the fibro-thing on you but any one of us with this disorder will tell you about the sensory overload we are plagued with.  Smells, especially.  I can smell a burning tire from a truck on the expressway for an hour after we pass it.  Walking into a grocery store where they are frying chicken right up front etc makes me gag.  I am forever asking The Hubby if he smells gas..NO, he can't.  The smell is coming from the lawn mower through two walls in the garage.

Just a thought...when you mentioned the smell issue it reminded me of ME!

Donna


fibro, menieres disease, RLS, anxiety disorder, disc compression, scoliosis, spinal stenosis TMJ  Meds: Lexapro and valium

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