I am currently going through a difficult time with my anxiety. I have been dealing with anxiety since I was 13 years old. I am now 23 years old and struggle to make it through everyday.
I am currently facing two huge challenges in my life. I am terrified of traveling. The first challenge is, I am suppose to travel this upcoming weekend. I scared of going away this weekend because I am afraid I will become sick, freak out, or end up in the hospital. These are my three big fears! I won't need to fly this weekend, thank god. I am going to stay with family members at a beach house. I am not sure if I can do this.
The second challenge is, I am suppose to travel to D.C. in July with 52 students. Myself and 9 other adults will be responsible for the 52 students. This time I will have to fly! I am terrified of flying. I am again afraid I will become sick, freak out, or end up in the hospital. How can I tell these parents that there kids will be safe with me when I am terrified I will lose it while we are gone?
I go to therapy every other week and work closely with a psychiatrist. My psychiatrist is currently working with me on finding the right medication dosage for me, since I am currently having a hard time functioning. I am currently on 80 mg of Celxia and 10 mg of Valium. I know in my head that I am fine and that I will be fine but it is my body that is completely freaking out. I feel like my mind and body and not communicating or connected.
I guess I wonder is this just a "chemical imbalance" that I am dealing with or am I causing myself to "freak out" and be sick.
Do I try to contradict my fears? Do I face them and try to travel?
Thanks for listening to me!