Im sorry in advance for whining but enough is enough and i cant take much more! Im still extremely sick and now have confirmed 2 more surgeries for next year- repeat of sinus surgery & then ovarian cysts. Im sick, im in pain, im tired and im FAT.
Tonight im going to an engagement party where all my posh friends are super skinny, super pretty, super perfect- and then there's me who is the token fatty in all the photos thanks to a mix of Zoloft and Fibro. i cant get comfortable in this skin, and a simple thing like driving for 45mins to an engagement party and having a late-ish night will set my health back further. i will pay for it tomorrow.
I cant sleep cos im in pain. but my self esteem is at rock bottom and that hurts the most.
'He heals the broken hearted and binds up their wounds.' (Psalm 147:3)
Panic Disorder, Agoraphobia, CFS, Fibromyalgia, Chronic Sinusitis, TMJ disorder, Asthma, Endometriosis, PCOS, Chronic E.N.T and Upper respiratory tract infections, Reactive Arthritis, GERD, IBS, Glandular fever, Migraines, Anemia, Chemical/Noise/Light sensitivity, Trichotilomania, PTSD, Seasonal Mood Disorder, OCD, Benign Vertigo, Impaired immune system. Tachycardia, tinnitus, low clotting factor= bruising. Tendonitis, Bursitis.
Meds: Zoloft 150mg. Xanax 4mg. Celebrex. Mobic. Panadeine Forte. Digesic. Nexium. Phenergan.
Multiple surgeries- I bear the scars of my poor physical health.
Age:29. AP first DX @ 10. Fibro etc DX @14. Proud Aussie.