Hello, Dipsy!! You are sounding very upset and sad. Instead of the diazepam, have you considered an anti-depressant or Buspar? I know there are medications out there that help people like you and who want to stay off drugs. Talk to your doctor about long term options. They are out there.
Is there anything in your life that may cause you to go back to drugs? If there is, work on that problem/issue. Maybe it's something or someone you need to kick out of your life.
Lastly, I've known people to turn to God for help with addiction and it worked. Maybe if you began with some prayer and speaking to a priest about your problems. You can get through this. You've made the right choice of sobriety and family. Now you just need a little help to keep you on this road to recovery. I'll be praying for you!
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
60 mg. Prozac, Ativan as needed.
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