Doc's Appt today.

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Allestaria
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   Posted 5/27/2009 12:51 AM (GMT -7)   
Well I'm worried. I finally have coughed up and made a doctors appt for today. Am nervous has all heck. I hate going. Absolutely hate it. I'm always thinking he will tell me the worst news. He is a great person. Listens to everything I have to say and actually listens to me.
I told him my fear of muscle relaxers and he didn't try to force them on me. But it still scares me.

He has tried to get me to do a blood test for some time. And needles OMG are like the worst for me. I hate them! Its an unreal fear that I don't understand. But yet I think I know why.

Told hubby and my mom so I have no choice but to go. Now I just have to get the nerve to tell him everything that is going on. Usually I go and tell him some but never everything. As I'm worried of the "news" he might tell me. He will probably talk about some more pills. I'm hoping the problem I'm having with the pain on my ovaries is just an infection. And will not require to much testing as I wont be able to handle much.

I always want to pace in the room. But don't want him to see me upset. I hide so much. And worry I might break down and cry. I don't like showing signs of being weak.

Gosh I so don't want to go. I just want it to all magically go away.

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   Posted 5/27/2009 7:04 AM (GMT -7)   
Allestaria,

Please take a deep breathe. These doctors are not out to hurt you, but to help you to get feeling better. I have a chronic and incurable bowel disease and I have learned that I have to let my fears go in order to feel better. Remember to tell the doctor everything or they can't help you to get feeling better.

Sending healing thoughts your way.

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Allestaria
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   Posted 5/27/2009 9:58 AM (GMT -7)   
Nanners,

I'm trying my best to stay calm. But boy is it not easy. I slept most of the day yesterday. 3 hours 25 minute count down. Lucky for me hubby is taking half the day off to take our cat to a vet appt and is dropping me off at the doc's. I would rather just not go.
I'm nervous as all heck right now.
The fear of bad news just so worries me. Or he gets upset with me for not taking the Lexapro I was supposed to take in december. But I'm going to see if he will allow me to work the meds my way. Take half a pill or even a 1/4 until I feel comfortable working my way up. I've had such bad luck with pills.
Then get approval from him that it is ok for me to start on a workout program. With details of safe heart rate etc so I don't worry to much about over doing it. As I have done in the past.
Maybe Xanex for quick help as I want to be able to go camping with the family next month. But being out in the middle of no where worries me. To many what if's.

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   Posted 5/27/2009 10:12 AM (GMT -7)   
Allestaria,

Hang in there. You're wise to make the appointment, and you'll make it through. It's very smart to tell him everything, so that he can do his best to help you. I'm glad you've got a comfortable relationship with him; that helps, even though you might not feel it right now.

You sound like the idea of meds makes sense to you, but that you're just scared to take them. Think about the camping trip, and how much more comfortable it could be if you've adjusted to some helpful meds. I can identify with worrying about being out in the middle of nowhere; maybe a fast-acting med can help you deal with that.

Is there something you enjoy doing that you could use as a treat after finishing your visit? Something that will help you settle down or congratulate yourself for going? Maybe you want to soak in a nice hot bath, or maybe a special meal or movie sounds appealing. Try following up the visit with something pleasant to see if that helps you associate good things with going to the doctor instead of only bad things.

Good luck to you, and let us know how the appointment goes for you,
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Allestaria
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   Posted 5/27/2009 11:03 AM (GMT -7)   
Percycat,

Thank you for the words of support. I'm of course not doing so well now.. Got about an hour left before we have to head towards town.

The idea of rewarding myself seems nice. But I can't do movies and I don't eat out. It will be the visit then straight home to my "safe place". And then probably a nap since I'm so stressed out.
But maybe after my nap we can rent a movie or something. That would be nice. Have dinner and a movie at home! Kids would enjoy that.
We don't rent often since I'm horrible about getting things back on time. But hubby can return it tomorrow.

Thanks for the idea Percy! Should be nice!

percycat
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   Posted 5/27/2009 11:05 AM (GMT -7)   
Good luck! Try attaching that carrot to your stick and maybe it will help a little.

Hugs,
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Aries8
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   Posted 5/27/2009 2:22 PM (GMT -7)   
Your doctor visit will be great! Blurt everything out and hopefully you have it written down on a list so you don't forget anything.

If you haven't had blood tests done in awhile, then go for it. They're really good about distracting you with conversation. It helps a lot. Know that it will all be over soon and you'll be glad you did it! If you need to lay down while they take the blood, then tell them.

Let us know how the appointment goes! I'll be thinking about you and sending happy thoughts your way!
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   Posted 5/27/2009 2:28 PM (GMT -7)   

Hello and by this time you Doctors appointment should be over and I am sure you did well.  We are all here waiting to see how you are?

Please know we care.

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nellebutter
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   Posted 5/27/2009 2:36 PM (GMT -7)   
Hey Allestaria, I hope things go well with your appt. I know how you feel. I always think that my Dr is going to give me bad news. Just today I missed an appointment because its a follow up for the last appt. Where he gave me lexapro. I never even put the Rx in and I'm worried he might be mad when he finds out it haven't taken it yet. Just be strong and it will all be over before you know it I know you can do it.
This too shall pass...


Allestaria
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   Posted 5/27/2009 3:58 PM (GMT -7)   
Well most of my headaches, ear pain and neck pain are from TMJ. He said I needed a mouth guard and to apply heat 3-5 times a day. And do jaw exercises. And gave me a RX for muscle relaxers to take at night.
He said it was ok for me to split my pills if I wish and take it slow. Which made me feel a lot better. He totally understands the trouble's I've had with meds. And is so willing to work with me on it. So I'll split my Lexapro in half and take 5mg's at first and see how that goes. The muscle relaxers are the lowest dose at 5mg's and says if I need I can cut them to so start with 2.5mg. And ease my way up. And stressed to only take them at night. As they will make me very sleepy. Which a good nights sleep would be so nice!
I'm actually excited to start my meds for a change! And of course if I have any trouble what so ever to see him asap! So I know I'm not being a burden on me he just wants my anxiety fixed!

I do have another visit for monday for a pap and physical. Doc said to do both in one day or I probably wouldn't be back for the pap. Which he is right. So do it in one day is the best way to do it.

Aries8
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   Posted 5/27/2009 4:52 PM (GMT -7)   

Congrats on making it to the doctor!! I'm so happy for you! Don't you feel better?? Did they take blood?

The pap and physical are a piece of cake. They take a few moments and you'll be done. Again, congratulations and feel better soon!


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nellebutter
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   Posted 5/27/2009 5:15 PM (GMT -7)   
Im glad things went well I knew they would Im sure your next one will go smoothly too.
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Allestaria
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   Posted 5/27/2009 5:32 PM (GMT -7)   
I do feel a lot better. I thought the worst of my ear and neck pain.
While sitting in the waiting room I had a PA and wanted to leave. Almost started crying but I didn't want the others to see me break down. While I was in the little room waiting on the doc I again felt weak. But hubby was there to support me on my wanting to leave. And insisted I needed to stay =)

It was rough but I do feel so much better. And since it wasn't a MUST do now on the exam I can rest easy until monday.
I do think my doc felt bad because I didn't ask him to do it. But he was "ok" with it really. So at least I can go to the same place see the same nurses and such and feel a little more comfortable then going some where else.

Now I just need to chill calm down and be ready to take half a muscle relaxer tonight before I go to bed. And work myself up to seeing the dentist. Which is not a fun thought for me at all. Though I did look up more information on TMJ and should be ok to go see one! In a month or so =)

Allestaria
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   Posted 5/27/2009 5:34 PM (GMT -7)   
I do want to say thank you all for your support. You guys sure made it a lot easier for me to go. And knowing everyone understands how I really feel sure makes things so much easier. I actually have a smile on my face now. Compared to just a few hours ago when I felt depressed.

You all are great and words are just not enough to express how greatfull I am to of found you all!!

Again Thank you!!!

(((GIANT HUGS)))
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