Sorry to hear you've had some rough days, I know how you mean about just wanting the anxiety to go away. Go easy on yourself, you've been through a lot lately and are doing an amazing job managing life stress AND anxiety!
Thanks for the kind words, I am really hopeful that I can make it without the Toprol. I'm not set against it but it has caused some weight gain that has put extra pressure on my legs and seems to make the leg cramps worse so I'm hoping I can get both of those under control.
I'm back at work today and I'm not sure if it was the distressing phone call with my brother/SIL or that I'm back to work but I am very anxious this morning. I'm trying to stay positive. I woke up with terrible cramps in my left leg that have been going on since yesterday, I'm trying to remind myself I was up on a ladder painting Friday night and am probably just sore from that but of course my anxiety brain is like "BLOOD CLOT". Ugh. Sometimes I just wish I could shut off these thoughts. I envy people who don't constantly worry like this. I know I used to be one of those people. Just got to figure out how to get rid of that thinking like you said!