What it like living with anxiety/panic disorders they think its so easy to just switch it off and hardly anyone recognises it as a real illness, Like my family I went to visit them yesterday after one of my big episodes and My dad whos getting on a bit now just does not support me and tends to favour my brothers over me as they are doing so much more with there lives and I am just the odd one because this illness effets me everyday, My mom on the other hand who has MS understands what its like to be the way I am and supports me. So anyway I get home afterwards to me and my partners house and I start to thinking what can I doto make myself better? So officially starting from tommorrow I start therapy with a psychiatrist and also CBT to try and help me live my life and not waste another second of it to this illness. Its not something I can control as many of you know on here, its a disorder I have a chemical imbalance in my brain that I need to admit to and realise that after 9 years of the same suffering whatever it is is not going to kill me. Its not a tumor its not the 1000 other illnesses I diagnose myself with it is simply just panic and the first steps for me is to admit that so here is where I am admitting it. On the other hand my stomach ulcers seem to be getting better so all in all I am having a positive day so far.