Thank You all for your responses! I am definitley trying to get a grasp on this anxiety, this is the first time in years it has hit me again. I am just so convinced that its something beyond anxiety and it has got worse since I've had my baby. I just can't bear the thought of not being here watching her grow up! I never really thought about therapy until recently. I always thought that I would feel even more crazy or having the fear that they would make me stay there, sounds crazy I know. I am taking ativan right now. I've been on numerous meds before; zoloft, lexapro, zantax.....and they all seemed to make me worse than better. Ativan is working somewhat well for me right now. If I can just get the thought of something being wrong w/ my health out of my mind then maybe I can recover in a faster sense. I have just had a fever for about a month now or ever since I've had surgery on my mouth and they are not sure what the cause of my fever is....so hopefully they'll get to the bottom of all that. But again thank you all for your support, i never knew that a site with support from others could make such a difference!