I go through this every time we have family gatherings. A lot of times I have come up with excuses not to go. Finally, I wrote an e-mail to everyone stating my feelings. I'm usually insulted in some way or the butt of jokes. It doesn't make for a good time. I haven't attended any family gatherings since.
If the thought of a family gathering makes you anxious, there's something in your subconscious that is bothering you. The way I see it is, if you're an adult, you can choose whether or not to go to these parties. Don't let guilt set in. Your health is number one right now.
Remember you are not trapped at home. You can begin exercising, gardening, volunteer work, go to the mall, experiment with cooking, etc. There are a lot of things you can be doing and having fun, too.
I've been playing tennis and doing a lot of reading. It keeps my mind off of myself. Let me know what you decide to begin doing so you'll be happier and more active!
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
60 mg. Prozac, Ativan as needed.
"The part can never be well unless the whole is well." Plato