I am so sorry for you what you suffered as you were growing up. I am here to tell you crying is good for you.
It is a widespread belief in the western world that crying is therapeutic and also the converse, that failure to cry is a danger to our health.
Psychotherapists and counsellors from nearly every school or persuasion regard crying during the process of therapy as constructive rather than destructive. They cannot all be wrong.
So let those tears out and do not fear, no one is going to punish you any more. We are here to listen and to support you. You are family here and we care about our members.