Just got back from First CBT Session

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LALady
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   Posted 6/23/2009 1:45 PM (GMT -7)   
As a preliminary matter, the doc decided to up my dosage of celexa to 30mg per day since I am still having baby panic attacks at work and needing klonopin regularly to take the edge off. It was a relief to know that she thinks my panic is simply the result of all that I have on my plate at the moment.
 
We talked about my childhood and upbringing mostly. It was very difficult to do, even though I had what I consider to be an amazing childhood with wonderful parents. I suppose it was hard because I realized how much of who I am today and what I do was dictated by what my family wanted. I'm in a career I don't particularly enjoy as a result of my family. That was sort of hard for me to accept as I heard the words coming out of my mouth.
 
What this therapy session taught me is that I hold a lot, perhaps way too much, inside. Voicing it to someone else, even writing it down in my journal, makes it real. Makes it something I can get a handle on and deal with. It distills it down to the nuts and bolts of my problems so it's easier to attack the things that proliferate and bother me.
 
I am most definitely looking forward to my next session!
27 year old female
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Dx: IBS, GAD
Meds: 20 mg Celexa, .5- 1mg Klonopin


Hibee
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   Posted 6/23/2009 1:58 PM (GMT -7)   
Hi belablue

Glad your first CBT went well and sounds like you got a lot out of it which is great news, Good luck with your next session be as open and truthful as you can and that way you will get the most out of it. When i did my first lot of therapy i held a lot back but when i start my CBT i will be talking over every thing with my therapist.

Take Care

Ben

stkitt
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   Posted 6/23/2009 7:29 PM (GMT -7)   

Bela,

I am so proud of you and I am glad that you feel good about your first CBT session.  I know I talked alot about my childhood in therapy too and learned some eye opening insight into what has contributed to my anxiety and depression all these years.

Please do keep on talking  with us and any time you would like please do email me as I am always available for any quesitons.

Gentle Hugs

Kitt



 

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Nanners
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   Posted 6/24/2009 5:39 AM (GMT -7)   
Glad to hear things went so well. I know I felt so much better after my first therapy appointment. Keep up the good work!
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LALady
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   Posted 6/24/2009 9:45 AM (GMT -7)   

Thanks for the encouragement everyone! It was eye opening to realize that some of the sources of my anxiety are things which I had not fully considered..(e.g. my profession being far from what I really wanted to do). I no doubt will hit emotional walls during the course of my therapy and have to knock em down to move forward, but I believe that is the only way I can overcome some of my issues. I am very happy with my therapist and think we will work well together. She is amazing :) I'll keep you all posted.

On another note, I upped my dose of Celexa last night and feel fine today. Baby panic attacks are still occuring so I'm still relying on Klonopin at work to keep me sane. It seems rough, and it seems my symptoms are even worsening now that I am fighting them..or perhaps they're the same, I'm just more conscious of them and focused on kicking them to the curb as you say, Kitt. However, I have much hope, tons of motivation and all of you who have supported me thus far. I am so appreciative of your compassion and advice. It means a great deal to me. Thanks!!

On an even more remote note...has anyone experienced getting mild rashes from their meds? Coincidentally, about week 2 into my treatment with celexa I have noticed a rash like thing on my chest. It doesn't itch, but it varies from day to day which doesn't seem like acne or plugged pores. It's not bad, but it's definitely annoying. The only thing I've changed in my regimen is the celexa and klonopin. Any ideas? I will probably have to pay a visit to the dermatologist (groan) :P


27 year old female
Attorney
Dx: IBS, GAD
Meds: 20 mg Celexa, .5- 1mg Klonopin


Aries8
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   Posted 6/24/2009 10:16 PM (GMT -7)   
Have your primary care physician take a look at that rash to see what could be causing it. Probably nothing serious.

I'm so glad your therapy session went so well. They always ask about family and your childhood. Sometimes I cry like a baby and it's soooo embarrassing! But the crying makes me realize that obviously these subjects we're talking about are sensitive and I must work through them.

Parents don't realize that whatever childhood they give their children, is what shapes who or what they will become as an adult. I can attribute a lot of my mental issues to things that happened when I was a child. There's a lot of anger and resentment that has lasted over 40 years. It's sad, really.

I would like to know what profession you wanted to be in?
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LALady
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   Posted 6/25/2009 9:46 AM (GMT -7)   

I wanted to major in English Literature and pursue my PHd. I wanted to try to get my Phd abroad and do my thesis on the ex-pat generation of American writers (Hemingway, Pound, etc) as I am smitten with them. I thought I would teach at the college level and write. A far cry from being a General Business litigator!


27 year old female
Attorney
Dx: IBS, GAD
Meds: 20 mg Celexa, .5- 1mg Klonopin


Aries8
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   Posted 6/25/2009 12:52 PM (GMT -7)   
You can still do that. I'm sure some of the education you've gotten so far can be put towards a degree in English Literature. Speak to a college counselor to find out how much work it would take. If you are not totally happy with your profession, now's the time to change it. You can do it!
Generalized Anxiety Disorder
 
60 mg. Prozac, Ativan as needed.
 
"Nothing makes us so lonely as our secrets." Paul Tournier


percycat
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   Posted 6/27/2009 7:32 AM (GMT -7)   
Bela,

That's wonderful that your first session went so well, and that you're already comfortable with your therapist. I hope the sessions continue to be productive; you've got a good and realistic attitude about what to expect.

Have you been journaling also since your post? Several others members get a lot of strength from doing that too.

Good luck!

percycat

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