Since been hit with really bad pure O, Anxiety and Depression 2 years ago, not much has improved. A couple of months ago, something new has happened, i seem to stare into space a lot and zone out. I am aware that i am doing this but i just cant seem to stop the feeling of just wanting to zone out, almost like staring into space, fixated on one spot. During this time when i am staring into space... i am fully aware i am doing it, i do not feel detached in anyway, it doesnt feel like a dream state, its just feels like i wanna fixate on one spot and sometimes my eyes can go blurry... almost like i am going cross eyed.
I try not to worry about this too much but it has kind of affected my life, for example, i find it hard to concentrate on things and i am findiing it pretty much impossible to watch TV as everytime i do, i start to zone out. Well ok it isn't impossible but it just takes a bit more effort.
At first, i thought it was some kind of depersonalization or derealization, but i searched for ages on the internet and they all keep mentioning the feeling of your body or environment being unreal. I do not get this. I must admit i did for the first week of having this but since then it is ONLY the feeling of wanting to stare into space. Also, my eyes feel sensitive now.
So... can anyone relate to this? is this a form of depersonalization/derealization?