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Date Joined Jun 2009
Total Posts : 3
Posted 6/29/2009 9:08 PM (GMT -6)
Boy am I glad I found this website! Obviously I am a newbie and this website has already helped me.
A few years ago, I was diagnosed with an enlarged heart and put on blood pressure medicine (Enalapril) once a day. I was only 22 years old, although I was (and still am) a large man (6ft 5in, 300lbs). Kind of bummed me out, but I was young and didn't have a lot of responsibilities. Then about
a year ago, I was having dull chest pains for days, so I decided to go to the ER since my doctor's office was closed for the day (and I live about
a block from the hospital). They FREAKED ME OUT. They wheeled me in and hooked a bunch of stuff up to me, and I had my first full blown panic attack. I couldn't breathe, got extremely cold, lethargic, and my BP skyrocketed. Over the next few days, I had a stress test, EKG's, etc. Nothing seemed to be wrong. Even my heart was "normal". Well, what about
the enlarged heart? So, needless to say, my trust in doctors went out the window. Someone is wrong, either I do or do not have an enlarged heart. So, my doctor said I probably had an inflamed chest wall and Acid Reflux. He prescribed me Prilosec and Aleve. Then, I started having different chest pains and apparently my mind shut down. I laid in bed for three days thinking that I was going to die. I had a wife and a three year old with one on the way at that time and my mind just raced. The feeling of impending doom, wondering how my kids were going to grow up, etc. I went to my doctor, and it's kind of funny, I felt GOOD and RELIEVED every time I went to the doctor's office. He diagnosed my with GAD and prescribed me PAXIL. So, I looked up everything I could about
PAXIL, GAD, etc, which was a bad thing to do as some of you know. I took the PAXIL for four days and felt HORRIBLE. I go back to the doctor, and by this time I think that he is getting tired of me, and prescribed me PROZAC. Same thing happened. By this time, I thought all kinds of things. Am I going to end up in a mental institution? I didn't like that doctor, so I went to another doctor that my father and grandfather use. He prescribed me some Effexor XR and XANAX to take. Well, I looked it all up on the internet (dumb, dumb) and immediately told myself that I didn't want to take the XANAX. I got sick off of the Effexor same as always. By this time, I had had the XANAX for a couple of months. I kept it with me at all times, it helped knowing that if my GAD got REALLY bad, I could take it. I went back to the doctor and he TOLD me to take the XANAX when I need to and to not be afraid of it. I told him that I didn't want to be on the SSRI's even though I am SURE I got sick on them because in my mind I just knew I would (if that makes any sense). He told me that it is awfully difficult to get past GAD without medications, etc., but I was more than welcome to try. That was about
14 months ago, and I go through stages where I take a half of a .25mg XANAX once to three times a day, for maybe a couple of days, or maybe a couple of weeks. Sometimes I have little to no symptoms for weeks at a time, then something will happen, kids get sick, stress from work, seeing a fresh dead body on a service call at work(you would think that at a funeral home, they wouldn't keep the fresh ones out in the garage so anyone can see them if they go in there), seeing a dead body along the freeway on my way to work in the morning( I commute and use that highway everyday), my mom being diagnosed with cancer, my uncle being diagnosed with terminal cancer, etc. Now I have new symptoms that have been acting up the last month or so. Pinching feeling in my left jaw and left armpit, sharp shooting pain in the middle/left side of my chest, tingling left hand, etc. I have been sleeping on the couch thinking that when I sleep on my stomach in our bed, (that's the only way I don't keep my wife up from me snoring all night) I am stretching my chest wall muscle at night. When I stay busy, I don't have ANY symptoms. (as a matter of fact, I haven't had any symptoms while I have been typing this)But, if I have time to think about
things, it comes back. It seems like anxiety causes anxiety, like it's a learned behavior. It seems to me that I want so badly to be a good father and husband, that I am worried that I will have another episode like I had last year, but that it might last forever. It is the first thing that I think of, even BEFORE I wake up in the morning. "Am I going to have a good day, or a bad day today?" My wife has been amazing throughout this whole thing, but I feel like a burden at times. Since I commute, I am gone for 10-12 hours a day. She works, too, and if I am having a "bad day" she can get stuck with dealing with the kids, bathing the kids, making dinner, cleaning up, dished, laundry, etc. which in turn makes my anxiety worse, since I feel that I am failing as a husband/father. Wow, long first post. I just hope that this helps even ONE person, because I feel that some of these other posts have made me feel better, knowing that I am not the only one.
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Date Joined Jul 2007
Total Posts : 132
Posted 6/29/2009 9:34 PM (GMT -6)
Yeah it reminds me of my first few panic attacks, I had a 4 month old and found out I was pregnant. I always felt like I would die and worry to death about
my babies. Like what would they do without their mom, I just knew I would die. I swore that I would die during labor. Never did! But it made me feel sad because I did not want to die since I was a new mom. My little girl is now 31 months and my son is 20 months. Something like that, well I made it through and my panic attacks got better but I still get them and they were good for a while and now the past couple of weeks my gynecologist thought he heard a click sound in my heart so I will go to the cardiologist Wednesday to determine whether I have mitral valve prolapse or not. I am now worried and nervous about
the situation but I feel that it will go well but I am scared as all get out for something wrong. I wish I could just block out all the negative, you know. I am determined to overcome my anxiety and panic. I will one day soon too! Well sounds to me like you are a wonderful dad and father. You work many hours a day, more than the average, and I am sure your wife is very understanding of that since she does a lot of the house/baby work. As a mom myself, my husband works with computers and he works long hours as you and I feel glad that I can clean, cook, take care of babies. I bet that first panic attack was very scary being in front of them doctors and all with all that stuff hooked up to your chest. My fist panic attack was during labor with my first child and my heart rate was 185 beats per minute! The doctor had just broke my water and then it happened. I swore that I was one of them women to die during labor but I made it. And thats why I was so scared during my second pregnancy fearing the labor thing again. Panic attacks are the scariest things imagionable. But remember that it can be overcome. Have much hope, faith, and a positive attitude and outlook on everything. You seem like a wonderful dad and husband, especially since you are concerned about
how your wife and family feel.
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