April, hang in there. I think it's great that you'rre working with a therapist and that you're part of a group. My attacks were very similar in that you could never predict when they would hit. Here's the main thing I've come to realize: After the attack is over we still hold onto it. Why do we do this? If you have a headache, take Advil and in 30 minutes the headache is gone, you don't think anything of it. It's over, great news. However, with a panic attack, as soon as it's over, we start worrying about the next one. When will it happen? Will it be worse than the last one? Where will I be when it happens? And on and on and on.... Sometime I hope you will find a solution, but until then know we are out here and care for you. Keep posting and letting us know how you're doing. Try not to spend too much time looking back at what has happened. You are doing better!